I Almost Wrote A Song About You Today

But I tore it all up and then I THREW IT AWAY !
And I Almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost had you
And I didn't even know it
You kept me guessin' and now I'm destined to spend my time missin' you ,
I ALMOST wish you woulda loved me too .

=] <3 STEVE MARTIN DAY ? =O

BOOM ! CRACK ! BANG ! POP !

Whatever it's really stormy out right ?
Like really crazy, blizzard turn tornado in Edmonton for the first time since 1986 ir something eh?
Driving home, Mum's back windshield SHATTERS .
Pics soon, but oh man was it crazy .
I feel really bad now though. Her beamer's her lovechild , and she's really really sad. It sucks for her.
A number of things happen afterwards:
!. Chair back from Ellie
@. Windsheild crack summore
#.Grandma calls and blames it on me , if I hadn't been out with my friends late, I woudln't have needed a ride back home and this never would have happened . Thanks G-Ma :)
$. My parents are so stupid sometimes it's hard to believe. I love you but . Stupid .
Moustafa : I knew something was going to happen to the car tonight . I could feel it
Angela : Some people can have premonitions about it you know ?
Moustafa : Omg I know . I totally have that .
Angela : I so believe in you Moustafa .
Isha : OH FUCK YOU'RE SO GAY LOL!!!!

LOL / Honestly . Parents. I almost convinced my mother that we were actually struck by lighting for goddsakes.
Again Pics soon yeah ?

Love Today , Isha .

... Slowdance On The Inside <3

=( Get better B ! Good grief mono .
So no desk , back to IKEA for a bookself ? REDREDRED.
Oh god I hate IKEA . It's so goddamn far .
And Elles you know that like tangerine set of lights at junk cellar ? Like the big round orange balls hanging (HAHA) off the gold post ?
I kind of want it to fill up space in my room :)
Or something like that to fill up space
and I need a really sick rug to fill up floor space and make my room more roomy !
Oh redecorating is so exciting :)

SO LIKE OMG DRIVER'S TEST NEXT SATURDAY AREN'T YOU EXCITED !!!!

But I swear I'm not going to think about it , in fact I'm going to forget about it for the next week .
If I say it too you again , I'm just looking for attention & conversation . It's not on the front of my mind , just the back .
HO SHIT SUPERNATURAL TIME CYA
PCE
LUV
ROK IN ROLE .
isuh .

This is one of those blogs where I've been trying to write it for over an hour now .

It just turns out too self-pitying and sounds stupid .

At least I wrote it down and got it out .

I'm going to try and stop this onset from coming .

I just feel really lonely sometimes , and wish the picture could fix everything .

I wish I was the love potion .

Oh , I'm being a whiney fat snob .

Sorry .

Summer Has Gone And Passed

The innocent can never last
Wake Me Up When September Ends .

ROAR

WHY NOT ?

I don't understand why I'm not allowed to get a job .

The point that it will affect my academic profile , I see . Valid point parents .

But for your information , I wouldn't let it . And if it came to be too much , I would quit .

That simple . I'm trying to be as fair as possible but there is just no give from them .

This is ridiculous.

AND YOU KNOW WHAT I HATE THE MOST .

They keep saying the only reason I want a job is because I'm following people (friends)

No fucktards, and I don't follow people .

Ugh they make me feel so low about myself .

So low.

I want a job so I can be more independent , be integrated in the real world , and stop asking daddy for money . I HATE THAT FEELING .

Y'all gonn make me lose my mind

Up in here , Up in here.

:(

Isha .

Sweet Home Alabama

Oh there's so many blogs to read now that you got one too ,
it's good . So much more to read!!
Books I need to read : Shake Hands With the Devil -- Choke --Glass--Identity--A Million little pieces or whatever and the sequel to thaat .
Dinner with Marisha tonight , should be fun.
Mother's a bitch . Just a bitch . Good lord, that woman knows how to ruin the day .
Ooo scandalous , she's right behind me as I type away .
I have a big problem guys .
I'VE LOST THE ABILITY TO SLEEP IN .
I actually can't sleep in past 8:30 .
Body are you trying to tell Isha something ? Or maybe my cells are just on overload because I started the workout regime agian .
Oh how I love feeling the burn .
"I don't wanna Fall To Pieces , I just wanna sit and stare at you ."
Except there is no you .
Liscence ? I dunno but I'm getting scared . I don't wanna let you , you , and myself down ....
We'll see . I guess ,

That's What You Get
Isha .
=)

Problem SOLVED .

Phwef!
Sorry for being a bother yesterday eKay , it was just heart stressing you know ?
Thanks for putting up with me . <3 I needed that .
SO ASSEMBLED my bedside table WEE I have fuurniture again !!!!
The chair is like half done but I need your power drill 'n' skill to comeplete the rest of it .
One more Driver's Training, oh my f. Then booking the testt ? I need paige to take me on the route she did with alex,
but i think they might forget . Got some txtin to do .
Guess who needs a job ! Really really soon .
For many purposes , one being I want to buy my own new bedframe since we're not selling the old one ,
and maybe a iPod Classic [Blackizzle] but we'll see about that one . For soul intentions of the car only , and there may be no car so . We'll have to see .
And why is it so fucking windy these days ..

Is there Beauty in the Breakdown ?
Isha :)
I'm really happy today . I don't why, and it won't last.
Too bad . I'd give for these happy daiiz.
&& Dorothy , I'm BEYOND excited that you got a blog too .
I'm so impressed with the layout ,. you'll have to do mine .

I'm Free As A

Ooo but I can feel the Pressure,

It's getting closer now -

But better off without you ?

Ishaa .

Yes We Can

You know, I thought today was going to be one of my worst days , due to the circumstances .
(Studying all day, DT#4 @ 3:30.)
But how could it be, when history is being made ?
It's beyond me how huge this is , unimaginable .
Let's see where he takes us .
The Inauguration of Barack Obama
12pm Eastern.

Change.

Paradise Burning .

I was in a sour mood yesterday, for no reason . Nothing from the norm .
Sorry friends <3 !
I thought I would fail or azn fail(60%) my math final this morning ,
and math I am the 90%+ nerd, if I don't do good I get sad .
But it was actually pretty easy , I think I'll be okay .
Driver's also got me down . I fuckin' HATE IT . AGH.
LOL thank you Ethan . Very stimulating .
I just like reading your guys' thoughts.. it amuses me and gives me something to do when I'm at home . (I need a life , and a boyfriend!)
--God Sophia keeps talking to me on MSN and I'm trying to blog deeply .
ANYWAYS . We have something in common , I miss my best friend too .
And apparently I need to get her back ON track .
Only the Big Kahoona is left --> that'd be my Bio Diploma .
Distinguished isn't it . I'm a little scurred , but I've been studying real good so I think it'll be okayp. ish .
EEEEM Driver's Training AGAIN Tomorrow , urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhles.
Fuck. Fack. Fick . Feck.
Anyways I'm getting really hungry , but I'll leave you with me and Sophia's Convo .
(This is Sophia Le fyi, the best asian gurl in tha werld .)
I know it's really long but YOU HAVE TO READ IT , especially Dorothy but Ellie et Kyle et Ethan even though you don't know her . Oh god it's just so funny .
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Ishaa. says: lol guess what
Soph says: what your mom? =D
Ishaa. says: me and dorothy made a deal that if we don't get boyfriends by the time we're 23, we're becoming lesbians
Soph says: are you serious
Soph says: LOL SERIOUS?
Ishaa. says: its' serious .
Soph says: LoLrUsErIoUs?
Soph says: omg
Soph says: that's a huge commitment
Soph says: i'm scared of you guys now
Soph says: why not stick to the heterosexual way of life?
Isha says: If we can't attract excellent boys by then, what's the point of to keep on trying
Isha says: because we make friends with girls 24/7
Isha says: one of them is bound to be a lesbo too
Soph says: then you'll have a 99% chance of being lezbos
Soph says: ;D have fun
Ishaa. says: i know
Soph says: JK 70% chance
Ishaa. says: i will
Soph says: so have fun with the 30%
Ishaa. says: yeah i will
Soph says: if i were you i'd keep on trying
Soph says: but then again, i'm not really picky
Ishaa says: LOLOL wow
Soph says: D: if you guys are lezbos, i'll be hiding away from you guys
Ishaa. says: that's pretty sexist
Soph says: you mean racist @_@?
Ishaa. says: NO YOU DINK HOW DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH ANYONE'S RACE .
Soph says: i don't think you guys should go through with the bet/pack/deal, w/e it is
Soph says: don't DO IT
Ishaa says: I'm also getting lots of tattoos after I'm 18 :)
Soph says: O_O
Soph says: O_O
Soph says: holy cow isha
Soph says: your making me chuckle here isha
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LMMFAO . Then I gave up . But anyways I hope you friggen enjoyed that, I'm tearing up laughing . She's so... Sophia .
Luv Luv Isha

Yuck!

This feeling inside . GET OUT
Driver's Training #3 complete . Fuck
Two more. TWO MORE .
Remind me why this is worth it again ? Before I quit .
No one blogged :( But sometimes your blogs make me feel uneasy .
Too deep or something, makes me feel inferior . Shallow . Think unhappy thoughts .
Bleh I'm bord. Gotta study math , two units of bio hopefully. I actually have to.
"Always up or down ,
never Down And Out
Dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak ."

Scar Tissue[s] that I wish you saw ,
Isha .

Certainty Kills

Gemini: What you're hungry for cannot be bought in a store. You need to look inside. .

Hmm. Facebook Hor , again .
The only one I like.
SO MUCH to do today , I'm sad lol.
Study 3 bio topics, & laundry & GAY Jane's B-Day Dinner I AM SO SAD NOW .\
Ah fuck. And my arm . Looks like it's been malled by an infected rat/.
It's just raw and gaping wounds EVERYWHERE and I want to cut it off.
True, it had to get worse before it got better, but this is just awful :(
Ay Caramba. If that's how you spell it.
Too many happy songs on my shuffle right now,
ENOUGH!

FUEL GIMME FIRRE GIMME THAT WHICH I DESIREE UHH.
Luv Luv Isha

I Ate An Apple WHOLE

Sick.
Today I'm at a bit of a standstill .
It's going to be a waste of a day, I can tell .
Like going to IKEA?
Going to school for 4th to hang with Feli :)
Bus to your house or what ?
I'm so confused. No I'm not, I just feel BLEH.

Lies make it better
Lies are forever
Lies to go home to
Lies to wake up to
Lies from the alter
Lies make you falter
Lies keep your mouth fed
Lies 'till your death bed
LIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES
Come back Billy T. :)

Ishuhbluhbluh

CupCake.

I changed my mind .

So you invade my sleep
And confuse my dreams
Turn my nights TO SLEEPLESS ITCH
Stuck On You 'till the end of time ,
I'm too tired to fight your rhyme.
Stuck On You 'till the end of time ,
You've got me paralyzed .

I definitely almost missed a T in STUCK .
Let that sink in :)
It'll smooth over, it will .
You hurt, I hurt . Honest to all that is good and holy in the werld .
<3

Untitled

1 down ! 2 two go .
Ouch, that stinks . The studying continues.
Ah I hate studying. I'd rather much be doing something more stimulating.
A list is forming in my head, but I dare not say it out loud .
It'll come as it comes .
Haha . Cums . JKS
Nick et Jelena today, some supersonic cybertronic telepathic communication goin' on thur ,.
It was hilarious.
GUESS WHAT
I thought of the perfect tatty to get , it'll be my 2nd-3rd if #1 goes well . Back of the upper arm .
It would be the Eye Of Horus , the Egyptian Eye thing . I know you guys have seen it :)
It makes me really excited to think about it , I think it'd suit me PERFECTLY .
I kinda also wanted an ankh , but now that I look at it more it might look a little sacreligous, a little bit too bold.
I would've gotten a big one on my left shoulder blade . Mayeb not, though hee.
I don't know why but the word "ankh" made Larrie have an almost Ellie size laughing attack. It was fuckin funnnnny, and then Ms. Van was like "WHO'S LAUGHING >:<"
I thought I'd like a portait of someone , but . Like my father when he was 17, or my mum or grandmum , but just getting one wouldn't be fair to the other , so that's OUT . I think .
I need something Indian as well . But everything "Indian" is like Hindu or Sikh. And I am neither those religions so I wouldn't want to imprint that underneath my skin forever .
Something neutral, of indie descent.
Maybe I'll just get BOLLYWOOD in huge Script Letters arcoss my abdomen.
LOLOLOLOL Sick.

"Listen up everyone!
We have been just informed that there's an unknown virus that's attackin' all clubs ;
Symptoms have said to be -
Heavy breathin', wil' dancin' coughin',
So when you hear the sound " HOO DEE HOOO"
RUN FO COVA"

Pass That Dutch
Isha .

...Change Of Topic

My life for next week ish is pree busy yo, it sucks.

Today , study bio units 1+2 NOW.
Wednesday: NO CLASS YAY
-------------Braziere's + a robe + slippers + bestie
-------------Study 4 Soc Studz
Thursday: Soc FINAL
-------------Study Bio Units 3+4
Friday: ??????
Saturday: Study Bio Units 5+6
Sunday: 3rd in car lesson
---------Study Math
Monday: Math FINAL
---------Study Bio Unit 7
Tuesday: Study ALL BIO
---------4th in car lesson
Wednesday: BIO FUCKING DIPLOMA .

I'm sorry Ms. Jackson , but I am for reallllll.

Friends , I haven't said a bit about my mumsie for a while, I think I'll dabble on that for a second.
I'm pretty stressed what with finals around and stuff . Wouldn't you have the common courtesy to take a week off from being a psycho bitch mom, and just let me breathe !
I might sound petty now, but . She is just trying to rearrange my bathroom // bedroom ,
put everything under the counters and "out of the way", just ah!
Like I live in a certain order, everything is placed according to my personality , my daily routine, I just grab it and go .
The way my room is . Well. It's called My Room for a reason dear.
I dunno guys I feel stupid for being annoyed by this , but it's like insane.
I'm not lividly mad at all , if I let my emotions get the best of me I would have a stroke at this time lol.
It's just . The type of things she does , I just feel like someone's hands and grabbing onto my heart & lungs and swinging on them like monkey bars. If that made sense .
It truly is a Straightjacket Feeling.
She just can NEVER leave me alone . It's so unecessary, and it bugs me . I can't breathe when I'm in my house .
I don't know what possesses her to do things like that, and it's the little things that drive me mad.
I don't get her sometimes. At all actually.
It's just grown really old, and it's going to continue to do so.
To be honest , I want her to snap . Like a fucking twig . I want her to realize what she's really like, THAT"S ALL .
She is nice, and when we get along, even for like the few 20 seconds every day and half I savour every moment of it.
A Real Mother .
Do you know that whenever I see a young mom with a young child going to the park to have a fantabulous time , I have to look away?
Because if I keep watching, I'd cry .
I dunno man, I dunno.
Don't worry I'm not sad now , I just . This sucks . So many things are piling up . January is going to be a squeeze .

I can feel the Pressure ,
it's getting closer now
But better off without you .
Luv Luv Isha

AHH

No time !
Monday --> Well that's kinda over now isn't it .
Tuesday --> full classes
Wednesday --> Bras + Ellie + social class in afternoon
Thursday --> Social FINAL rm 243 / Bio + Math in afternoon
Friday --> Bio + Math in morning
Sat--> Sit at home and cry
Sun--> STUDY FOR MATH FINAL , 3rd Drivers Training
Monday --> MATH FINAL
Tuesday--> STUDY FOR BIO DIPLOMA , 4th Drivers Training
Wednesday--> BIO DIPLOMA
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R
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D
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SO MUCH SCHOOL TO DO
MY HEAD IS GOING TO EXPLODE
Luv Luv Isha :)

My Meninges Hurt

Blogging deep these days aren't we .
My neck is so stiff , I don't know why !
I think you got a little too rough in bed on Friday night Elles.
All good though :) Maybe I'll ask LT to sit behind me and rub my neck.
NO JKS , I'd die if I uttered that phrase to my tall God of Handsomeness .
Hehe .
My arm . Bad allergic reaction , it looks like it's been mangled and malled by a dirty racoon .
It sucks :( True, least it's winter .
I am grounded until final are over, THIS SUCKS .
Boys wanted to go to Cheesecake Saturday night , I had to bail.
S'pposed to go to my girlfriends house today , watch some golden globes , had to bail on her . Listening to a little Carolina Drama , it's eerie.
Oh ya Dorothy so my instructor, his STUPID CAR has certain buttons you need to press from switching to P , R , N, and D ? And I wasn't "doing" it right , and he rips my hand off the lever and SCREAMS "YOU'RE GOING TO BREAK MY TRANSMISSION YOU'RE GOING TO SHATTER MY STEERING COLUMN blah blah blah , and I was already having a bad time so I got super upset and almost cried. He was so mean !
But 3 more classes , I can deal .
My parents said that if he does fail me I can still get my liscence regardless , cuz they know I'm a good driver anyways :)
I hope he passes me cuz this course cost a HUGE sum of money though . And Moustafa is in so much debt lol . Silly Egyptians .

Ehhem --
Horoscopes are in your favour ,
Gemini: You will completely change how you look at something today, after you learn a crucial piece of info. .

Peace in Conflict , Running From Lions never felt like such a mistake

3rd Time's the Charm ?

WE'LL FUCKING SEE .
All that I'm going to say , is that I almost cried today during driver's training -- -- --











Because he screamed at me in pure , utter anger .
PceMuthaz.

That's Deep .

WAIST DEEP IN HOMEWORK AND STUDYING AND TRYING TO KEEP UP WITH WORKING OUT AND SCHEDUELS AND DRIVERS TRAINING AND EXAMS AND BIO AND MATH AND UN DEBATE AND BOYS AND TOYS AND BRAS AND MUSIC AND TXT MGS AND PHONES AND NO HARM DONE, NONE OF THEM WANT TO FIGHT ME --> COMBAT BABY , COME BACK BABY .

PCE

Sorry

I won't use the blanks ____ anymore .
Ps. that is not a blank for you to figure out either.
Mass txts all around , nobody make a sound .
I wanna blog What A Catch, Donnie but I don't have time.
Study --> Work out --> Suite Life of Z&C --> hot sex with client --> bed .
Pce
Luv
Rock & roll .
Isha .

Passing Out In America

OH
I'm a happy panda today .
I got ALL new underwear people. ALL NEW KYLE ALL NEW !
You don't understand. It's because you are a boy, I understand . But . It's fucking AWSOME.
I feel so re-newed :) You're going to like all the ones I bought too blondie , special sneak peaks =O
LOL / I know I just violated you Ky , I'm sorry . This is going to be like me talking about boys with you and you just rolling your eyes . Don't bring it up , I'm sure I won't openly discuss my undergarments with you if you don't remind me . But if you do . Uh-oh .
White Black Stripes Polka-Dotty Pink Gold Navy Lace Lacey Lacier LaceyASS .
You though i was going to say Laciest .
Oh dearest Elle , thank you for bearing with me for 1 hour in that place. Yes gentlemen and Dorothy , i spent an HOUR deciding . It's tough okay ? Don't judge your amazing Isha . I have flaws, BIG ONES .
Ex. I talk about my underwear in blogs .
Hmmm . Life is good . Next up, _R_'S & new furniture !
Oh , I have some furniture to sell , any takers ? Or you you guys know anyone who wants ???
I need help! Other than Craigslist . So don't suggest that/. E-bay is a no no too.

Miracle! just came on my playlist . Utter joy Paramore , ty . ilysm . Please come so me 'n' Wyatt can go PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE COME TO EDMONTON . Please. I neeeeeeeeeeeeed to see you live before I die .

IT'S NOT FAITH IF YOU'RE USING YOUR EYES
(Keep that in mind Ellie)
Luv Luv Isha .

The (Shipped) Gold Standard

As soon as we hit the hospital I know we're gonna leave this town ,
Get new passports and get get get get -- get out now .

Ugh .

:(
=S
>:<
Fuck .

Something To Sleep To

Gets me through ^.
Embarrassed
Disheartened
Annoyed or something ?
Snowy
Fluffy
Passed
Failed
Thank God
Feels Little
Hopeless
Hopeful
Soon
How Soon .

Continue .

EMOtional

Oh those eems.

I've tried to write this January 1st blog 2 times already today - it's not working out so well .

Either too sad , too wretched , too personal , too graphic, too vivid , too much .

I'm so bored with myself I just begin to think sad thoughts or something . It's awful .

What do you do when you're at home all day ? How do you occupy yourself ?

I've become so attached to this red head chick that I don't really have fun unless she's thurr .And paying full attention to me ;) I'm so high maintenance :( I apologize , I'm going to stop doing that. I also apologize for complaining so much about her . And getting lame mood swings . Not good . There is no reason why I should be sad like that really .I want to be the best , least annoying and most needed person to you , just =3

Oh look at that . I have driver's training again tomorrow .

Last day of in class , TEST DAY :O Wish me luck readers + friends !

Fack . And so much coming up in school .. ..... ... . .. .

I don't wanna talk about it.

Isha .