The Phrase That Pays

Hold
your
Head
High
Heavy
Hearts
.
(L)uv (L)uv Isha
<3

Perfect .

I'm waisting this blog title so badly .
I'm exhausted /
I don't know what I'm doing for New Years ...
It's going to be like always , nothing , just go to bed at 10 .
Lol . Except I'm not laughing .
A lot to do
Pce

No Song Title Here

Move Move SHAKE SHAKE now drop .
Eep ! I actually do love dancing --> shaking my ass and poppin' ma shoulda's backk .
LOL . I made VHERY guhd friends with a leb guy at the dance party ... for like 10 seconds of course , I'm no slut ! You trust me right Kyle ? Hehe <33 ilu .But it was weird, he like grabbed me by the waist and started grinding from behind =O I went with it but then after 10 I was like WAIT A MINUTE !!!!! Must stay faithful to my blondie :) So I turned around and waved a "Thanks" , and he's like "No no , THANK YOU ." . Hahahahahaha . My first clubbinn' expo . Oh Isha , you're pathetic .
I hope you all get a good laugh , that's all I'm trying to do . Lighten your day . Or night , whenevr your reading this.
Michelle Branch is doing so for me right now , yay .
So . I . am tired !
There are things I want to do , but again I am NOT blogging them .
That turns into a list , and stays as a list forever .
This year ,
Live .
And that is not a New Year's Resolution either .
I'm not making any of those . I think I said that before , but I'm putting my foot down .

you give me Something To Sleep To , at niight . (L)
Luv Luv Isha . Almost wrote Osha there for a second . ;)

K-K-K-KAOS

WELL WOULD YA LOOK AT THAT .
So . My parents of course missed their flight to Edmonton .
They're stuck in Minneapolis for the night , and are going to catch a plane at 11 am tomorrow I suppose .
Meanwhile , guess who has driver's training at 9 in the morning , has to feed the cat , shave , do my hair for an hour and then go to fucking Empire for a dance party ?
All the while , I just spent 1 hour yelling at the top of my lungs so my dear old grandfather could hear that I required a ride tomorrow morning .
Oh , I offered to take the bus -- I should not have called to inform the g rents that my parents would not be back tonight , oh , I should not have . But alas , I did , because my mom would have called anyways and I would have had to deal with that later on in the night .

*******

Well, I just sorted it out . They were going to send a brown lady that i do not know , to come here a 8 in thr morning , but I convinced them that it is a close ride and they only need to come at 8:30 .

And then I called my mommy and daddy and had a good cry . I had a bit of a breakdown down there after screaming to my elders , in effort to make them understand the simple , simple task at hand :(

This turned into something that was completely avoidable, yet , it happend .

Everything is techinically solved, I'm going to driver's training , bussing back , whatevs .

I must warn you Ellie , I'll be in a sour mood tomorrow , don't take it personally . Your blog by the way , I don't get it . I'm to shallow for you =) And vice vice versa , you're too deep ;) .

Sorry for not answering the txts Ethan , I'm having a hell of an evening .

Hi Dorothy =] I lavv yew <3

Kyle , whatsup ? I haven't talked to you for days =(

I hope your getting the jist of my week from my blogs lol , so you are in the know .

I think that covers kids who read my blog ... Or at least those that I know of ...

Luv Luv Isha .

OH SHIT I STILL HAVE TO FEED MURPHY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tipsy

Still not a fan of alcohol .
I hope I don't bring you party kids down ;)
I found an un-used cigar , I think it'll make good for some artistic (HAHA.CUP.CAYKE) shots =)
Except I JUST BROKE IT OOPS . Oh well nothing a little tape won't fix .
I'm really sad about my locket. Can we go into Urb and demand another one ? Except you're gonna have to do it , I'm to shy .
I have so many things to do , but I refuse to blog about them . I'm just going to do them as they come . For me , I feel better about it . No more making lists , bullets , whatever . It doesn't happen when I do it like that.
LOL i was considering going out by myself to the mall , since you weren't answering , but you JUST WOKE UP!?! You slob . No jks <333333333333333333333333 We did have a late night , so late that it was early morning . Fucking 7 a.m. I don't think I'll be able to do that again lol .
Actually it messed with my body clock . I had to force myself to sleep at 1 and I wasn't tired at all haha .
Oh well . Life is good :) Billy Talent is making me very happy right now . That's what we're listening to in the car today .
And Dorothy , I PROMISE today is the last day I'm driving illegally . I have to fill up the car lol . And We're squeezing in a trip to the mall . Then it's goodbye to my week of freedom .
But don't worry , I'm going to be done driver's training by Jan 28 , then that means ....
ISHA LICENSED BY FEB '09 ??!??!?!
I almost wrote 08 . How sad :(

--Well thank you Ethan , I don't know if it's categorized as an accomplishment , but it was certainly a step outside of my box =] I like being mentioned in other people's blogs . It makes me feel special . Haha .

Speak Up .
Luv Luv Isha .

Untitled

So a lot of deception continues through this week ;

I've been driving my mom's car all around town illegally -- I only have my learner's . =P

It's going pretty good , no accidents , no parts breaking ... uh-oh , better knock on wood ***

Ellie is gracefully snoring away as I type . The pit-pattering sound of the keyboard on her gorgeous Mac Book must me lulling her to sleep some more . What a sleepy goose . We only stayed up 'till 4 this time .

I can't imagine you over anyone else . You'll read this when you wake up , hopefully , and I hope it makes you smile . I'm so tempted to take a picture of you sleeping , it's quite a funny sight , but I have no chord for my camera so there is no point if I cannot upload it ;)

Soulful talks at 3 in the morning , after playing a rousing  2 hour game of Mr. Fancy Pants 'till 2 ? What more could I ask for in a best friend .

LOL , we're big losers . No wonder the wrong boys ask you out and none ask me at all . Oh dear .

Continuing , last night I understood what you said for my predicaments, and I'm sincerely going to try my best to listen to it , I swear . I'm just going to live , and be the best I can be . That's all thee is to it . And fli*t more, yuck ;) I'll do my best.  I have only begun to realize what a bad relationship can do to one , and am becoming thankful , that maybe it was a good thing no one has .... wanted that with me yet . Though , you are missing out . Only EK knows what kind of love I would give . Someone of the opposite sex , please discover =]

I'm waiting .

+OtherwiseHappy+ , and oh yeah , it's Christmas Eve . Well , sort of . Would.ya.look.at.that.

Luv Luv Isha .

Yule Blog

Feliz Navidad

Joyeux Noël

愉快的聖誕節

Fröhliches Weihnachten

Buon Natale

С Рождеством Христовым

Vrolijke Kerstmis

Merry Christmas.

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Oh my blog titles are so goddamn clever .

I just wanted to say Happy Holidays to all of you

I hope you have a good Christmas / Hanukkah / Kwanza or whatever else you celebrate

Make good choices , be good people .

As for me , alone this holiday , I've decided not to make New Year's Resolutions because whenever I do , they never get done . I just want to live , have a good year , do good things .... amazing things ....

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The one and only thing I want , I'm NEVER going to get . Ever . Saying "You WILL m**t so*e*n*" , no , I actually don't think I will . You don't know how much I want you to prove me wrong . I have no faith for that subject anymore, the only thing I'm good at is not attracting anybody . "I'm the champion of being alone ." AFS was right :( This is turning into a sad blog . I hope I didn't ruin everything .

Being by yourself for mutiple days can induce lethal thoughts .

Need human company now ...

Luv Luv Isha .

So So So Scandolous .

Do you guys remember that song ?
I know Dorothy hated it lol =P
BUT ANYWAYS.
Drinking . Stealing . Bacon ? :0
I was on a role , as MAS quoted . (Lol! I'm a huge dork)
So quite a weekend of deception for me :
--The parents go away for one week on a cruise of a lyfe time , leaving me here to fend for myself . But it was partially my choice not to go because I don't want to be stuck on a big ass boat with my parents and Jane and Mohsen (Uncle , and Aunt from HELL) , alone .
-- I decide to throw a hugee party :) !!!! Except it wasn't huge , but it was bigger then I thought .
--Hiding ALL the breakables in my house as to avoid incidents with drunk teenagers ? Genius Isha , I applaud you .
--Pool table , extremely loud techno and 90's rap music , drink after kid after kid after drink through my door , good --no , GREAT friends --, drunk assholes , Larrie 's a cutie , endless clean up and epic search for alcohol bottles //caps , making out in my bathroom + basement (and who knows WHAT else), Wyatt and Kevin naked in bed , Kevin slipping 2 TIMES !! , bleeding over my pool stick , chocolate sauce ALL OVEr Arvin's face <3 , Megan's amazing , Ellie's my best , oh god what else .
*We went to bed at 6 a.m. this morning . Fun .
--I tasted just about everything that was at that party . JUST A TASTE Kyle , literally sips here and there, but I stopped really really early , I swear . That shit tastes like fuck + ass + nail polish remover combined . I don't know how you kids can down that stuff lol :) . Even Bailey's let me down ! Ellie what am I going to do when we go to clubs and dance the night away ?!?Guess I'll just mix mix mix . It all tastes AWFUL to me . But that's because I know I am not a drinker , nor will ever be one . Coke & GingerAle are all I need to have a good time , and if you think it's lame , then you're not a real friend anyways . But I'm pretty sure everyone respects my decision not to drink , I don't think anyone cares . I have faith in my friends. Test that out .
-- I stole my mom's BMW to go to Safeway to get ketchup and syrup . Yes , me driving , Megan in the passenger's, two un-licensed teenagers on the rode in a fucking BMW X5 . Oh , that was pretty bad ass :) It felt good .
-- I ate Bacon ! Second thing I did that was against my "religion". I don't know if it's so much a religion , certainly not as proper and to the point as Moustafa sees it .... It was just from a young age I did not eat pork , and I never drank . I just grew up like that is all .
*We had the most amazing breakfast (at 1 in the afternoon) . Maple Sausage + Bacon , pancakes , smiley's , scrambled eggs, ,chocolate milk and coffee, and everything type of juice you could ever imagine . Yum .
It's ironic how I went from having 30 people in my house , to 10 , to 6 , to 0 in approximately 8 hours . I feel supremely lonely . I hope you guys reply to this blog . I'm actually very lonely and want to talk to you .
I have so much cleaning up to do still , and I'm only running on 3 (AT MOST) hours of sleep . This sucks .
Oh yeah and we all thought Jessica C was going to die lol .
Pictures soon , peace .

Luv Luv Isha.

Ow

Well , they're gone .
My heart aches a little bit .
I'm going to miss them , hard.
Thrilla , my throat and nose hurt .
Toniight ?
We'll see .
Luv
Luv
Isha
.

Ohhhh.

Round here we ridin' slow.

SO MUCH TO DO TOMORROW
Oh no !!!!
And karma , you're a lovely lady.
I'm not mad that I got a cold before Thunderheist ;
That's what I get for throwing a shin - dig the day my parents leave me .
I deserve it , it's allll good . We're even .
I love Karma . I really do .
M.I.A. Democracyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Luv Luv Isha .

Rep Your Clique

I have a lot of work to do .
Shit .
How am I going to fool mother dearest into thinking I've done the "touch-ups" she wants , without really doing them ...
Hmm.... This should take some mastermind and trickery ...
Or I could just do them , but no . I don't want to.
Hpmh . Now it's too late I'm tired :(
Boy can I waste a day away !
Fuck

CUZ ALL WE GET IS
DEAD DISCO
DEAD PHUNK
DEAD ROCK 'N' ROLL
REMODEL
EVERYTHING
WE SPEND TIME
LALALALALALaLalalalala .

Luv Luv Isha .

Constant Knot

--City And Colour

It's funny how life works isn't ?
:) one day
:( the next
Hay , that's no way to live . Smarten up !
Go find the ones you love, and stick with 'em .
Be open to everything and everyone . Who are we to judge anyone , really .
Be thankful for what you already have , and strive to be the best .

Thriller Niiight .
Yeah , it's Micheal Jackson kinda night .

Luv Luv Isha .

Pushin' Me Away

Every last word , every single thing you say .

You know . I'm really getting sick of you putting your grubby little hand on everything I touch .
You have to shove your nose into every aspect of my life, every fucking thing I do .
I can never have something to myself , something that I've done completely on my own .
She's barging in on my fucking room now . You don't understand . This is my (our) project.
I don't need you constantly nagging how the line isn't completely straight on the mother fucking tree , and now she's screwing around with my outlets and light switch -- AND VENT , she just ripped them ALL off the fucking wall and omg FUCK ////////////////////////////////////
If you need to feel needed somewhere, go help out in Moustafa's clinic . Try and make yourself useful where you're actually needed for once .
I'm sick of you COMPLETELY re-arranging all my stuff , and I literally mean ALL MY STUFF , my bathroom , my room , my closet , everything =(
You're creating unessecary work and it's a huge nusance to me .
Let me re-phrase that : You are a huge nusance to me . Ay fack . What am I going to do ...
I just have to keep putting all my fucking stuff back in it's place every single day for the rest of my life ? Niice .
Oh Karma ? I have a favor to ask.
KICK THE FUCK IN WITH A SUPER BOY ALREADY !!
I can't take much more of this . LOL , as you can clearly see.
Hai Ellie , the title and quote fit perfectly to my little situation huh ?
It's a Jonas Brother's song . Funny how that works isn't it ;) ?

Luv Luv Isha

Heavy Metal

Silent Night .
Not much to say , pretty exhausted from paintin' paintin' .
It's coming along rather nicely !
Thunderheist , oh god . This should be interesting .
Ecstacy , you make my lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .
"You make the best of me."
God .
I
just
am
blank
peace

Luv Luv Isha

Remembering Sunday

You know , I always thought I was over imagining how much of a cold hearted - no, I should say NO HEARTED - bitch you were , but in all actuality it is completely and utterly true . Unacceptable behaviour coming from a mother . You seem more like the wicked, evil step-mother to me , even though I would still take several bullets for you any time . Hit me , I'd never hit you back . Call me obscene names to assert power ? I would never say my true feelings to your face , only to keep your feelings alive . Because trust me I can be a menace with words when it comes to you ... You don't know how to act anymore , and it has become really childish to me . I can handle it , the only reason being is that you sound so . stupid to me, a lot of your harshness and whip bearing doesn't even make sense at times . Afterall , she just forbade me from talking to her ever again , since every comment that comes out of my mouth is back talking because I am SO RUDE to her , and she is the innocent lamb who has done nothing at all !
Friends , am I the type to be mean to someone , let alone my fucking birth mother , for no reason ?
I only speak out if it is provoked, and TRUST ME , it's provoked.
I am ashamed that I continue to get hurt by some of the untrue things she says . It is not easy being the bigger person , but I am getting better at it :)
Karma , Karma , Karma . Something great will come out of this .
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Sorry for the rant friends ! On with this week !
'Tis been full of Isha talking to a pleathora of extremely cute boys ! Odd I found it , but who's complaining .
DK . LT . JM .
And then the treat of meeting the infamous Ethan Davidge ! It was a pleasure being in your company, as I had expected :)
Oh and I don't mean infamous as in the literal sense , just that I finally met you after all the cyberspace conversations we've had .
Foooooooooooooo , life is hard , but never give up .
Never Say Never , <3

Luv Luv Isha .

No , You're A Fat Scarf .

(Skeptics And True Believers )
I truly apologize for my behaviour this past Friday, Korchagina . And to Marisha & Larrie .
That was absolutely no way to act . I usually don't let her get to me , but she took it to a new low , and sometimes it's just fucking hard man !
She just says shiet over and over and over and over and over again , in the harshest tones , it's just such a terrible attitude to have , especially from a mother.
I don't believe what she says , either , so you don't have to worry about that sillyness/
Oh look, she's bantering to me now about painting my room , weee ! Bitch .
But , if you remember one of my past nexopia blogs :

Karma : Call your mum a crazy bitch , she gonna act like one !

None the less , fuck it . I need to liveeeeeeeeeeeee . Sorry Dorothy , that's why I left early . I just really needed to go home and chill by myself . I've slept off the childish behaviour , and am ready to begin again . =] No more non-sense . And oh hai , am I meeting E~Fan 2day ?

Luv Luv Isha

P.S. Can you tell me what LT really did again , with no over exagguarations ? I . Want to know .
He makes me ....

It's Taking Up Our Time We Can't

Go back we can't , go back at all .
Haha so reb was kind of a drag , I pumped it up too much .
2 HOT HOT (heat) teams , Sherwood Park SPARTANS & AB O'Leary Senior Boys *drool*
I sat in the middle of the O'Leary boys to get some sick shots of the dunk contest . :)
Opening Ceremonies wasn't as spectacular as it was last year .. Too bad .
Probably the best thing was capturing the really great shots of Nick S . for Jelena .
I actually managed to do it again . Genius ! That'll be the only Xmas presesnt I'm giving to anyone ...
Only you if you want one , and Feli if she wants one . Otherwise , I have no job = no money = no presents , sorry .
It doesn't matter too much though cuz no one gives anything anyways . It's harsh world .
Jks jks , presents aren't important . I don't really care this Christmas .
Afterall , my family is leaving me . Oh well . Huff , I'm tired . Today was long, and my arms hurt from photographing all day . I'm starting to get angry so I'm going to stop blogging .
Whatever , better luck next time . =]
The above picture is so Friday Night Lights . Look it up if you're confused , and YES I know that's a football movie , but still . The lighting . Incredible . The below picture ? The determination in our team.. Sports can be a beautiful thing . Go Rebels Go .

Luv Luv Isha

PHOTOGRAPHY @ REB ALL DAY TOMORROW

Yes , that's one of mine .
Now imagine what I can do with a hot . sweaty . basketball playing boy .
If I have to shoot girls though , I'm seriously walking out .
Lol . Except that I'm beyond dead serious .
Hopefully this goes really well :) I want it to be an amazing experience all around .
I want to talk about some other things , but I honestly do NOT have time today .
There's LT updates, major !
There's painting updates , huge .
Saturday is going to be the buisiest day in the history of the world ,
as is next Saturday , Thunderheist is ON . Don't fret Dorothy :) I'll only cancel if know one shows ,
but otherwise it is Saturday , December 20th , 2008 .
SIICK ! I hope you guys have a fantastic week . Cheers ;) Too bad Nick doesn't read this . He'd get a kick ouotta that one .
"YOU'RE NOT BRITISH ." I love my friends .

Luv Luv Isha .

Voulez-Vous Coucher Avec Moi , Ce Soir ?

JKS . I'm no whore .
Today was weird . I met & talked to . Boys . Today . TWO . BOYS .
That's plural friends , I KNOW ! Like wtf .
That NEVER happens . Not that I'm complaining though haha .
And you know what's even more bizarre -
They're 2 of the boys on my Top 10 Hottest @ JP .
(If you don't mind me saying EeK, there's no denying him ;) But my intentions of friendship with him are true , I would never decieve you <3 )
Like . Made friends with the forbidden JM finally , after months and months of friggen gossip , retarded tears , whisperwhisperomgomghe'ssohawt.
And then sure , at the end of semester , cute Social boy (DK) FINALLY holds a conversation with me alone .
It was cool we were def flirting . It was pretty sarcastic about how he was all done the crossword but it was blank , and I was like "Invisble ink huh ?" And he's all "Mmmmmhmmmmmm." Haha , and a few more words like that , no big :) He was def stumbling though at first , it was funny . Clearly cuz of my glowing beauty . JKS JKS JKS . I'm not cocky confident about myself like that, not even close ! . Whatever . Boyz .
But now I'm betraying LT . I miss you ! Come to math already , jeez . :(
Oh well . Life is still good since that car ride, minus mum haggering me 24 / 7 . But it's all good , I deal . It really doesn't phase me anymore , to be honest . I get it that much .

--The only thing that really phases me is this painting the goddamn room and thunderheist . This could be a huge failiure . And me bio DIPLOMA . And math&social finals and test tomorrow :( .

"'Cause I got your picture, I'm coming with you ,
Dear Maria Count Me In !
There's a story at the bottom of this bottle and I'm the pen ;
MAKE IT COUNT , WHEN , I'M THE ONE THAT'S SELLING YOU OUT ,
'Cause it feels like stealing hearts calling your name from the crowd - Whoa Oh oh . "

Luv Luv Isha .

Brother (Watching)

Hey !
I don't really have much to say , I'm kinda drowsy / sleepy , and it's snowing outside .
My head hurts a bit . Shad is my new favourite rapper . His shit is legit yo . =]
That's goin' in the Carr Beatzz playlist on my iPod ;) .
SHIT LOOK AT THIS FUCKING STUPID FACEBOOK HOROSCOPE I HATE HOROSCOPES MORE THAN EVER NOW .

Gemini : That person you'd like to become closer with will never know if you don't speak up. Get over your shyness and let them know you want to hang out..

Wow ... . .. .. .. Fuck .
You know who this is about Ellie . Fuck . I should really just not post this and hide it from you , cuz now you're gonna bug me to GO UP TO HIM TALK TO HIM ITS EASY DUMBASS .
No , it's really not :( Please don't for now kay ? Lol . Except I'm serious don't freak me out . You have the ability to do that, and you know it ! <33333333
Why can't I be like Liz or something , minus the negative that comes with that chica , just. The ability to talk to any boy she desires .
Maybe I should become ultra girly and slutty and flirty and like omg omg omg like totally ! Wow . This sucks . It's just gonna be yet another boy that I don't acheive , because I cannot be mature and get over some certain issues within . *SIGH* Oh Isha, when are you gonna learn ?
I hate you facebook horoscopes , you're WAY TO ACCURATE . Because friends , truthfully , more then 10 of the fb ones have been 100% completely the fuck accurate . Dead on , straight hit .
BOOM .

Luv Luv Isha

Franklin

NOT as in Franklin-NicNelsonBitch-Franklin, don't fret Elles . =] LOL
It's a Paramore song , about missing home .
I'm still fairly happy right now , and I love it .
Eek, you make me joyful girl . I like when we cuddle too =3 .
The room is actually being started , I am amazed . This is actually one thing in my life that is going to come true (for once) . This is going to be sick . =D
The party, codename THUNDERHEIST, will also be sick . Hopefully everyone can make it .
I wish it could be like Tessa's party . Like VERY MUCH .
It's a huge stretch that LT [(L)Haha!] would come though Ellie , I have to be completely honest with myself.
It'd be a Christmas miracle if it happened though , it sure would !
For your information Dorothy , I ALMOST may have a new crush on a new boy . ALMOST .
But like , I'm being very practical , and not setting myself up for another COMPLETE dissapointment .
It would be heaven if I had a second semester class with him since this semester the dumb bum sat on the OTHER side of the room for like 3 months =( , but I'm 99.9% sure I don't so.
TIME SHALL TELL !
I almost wanna tell Tessa & Megan . But can I really trust anyone these days ?
If it were a perfect world , they'd tell him and he'd be like "Omg she does?!? I like her tew ". And drift off from there .
But alas , it is not like that , it will never happen . I dunno how I'm gonna get in for this one . Afterall , I never do .
I should stop saying Oh Well from now on . That's for pussy's. Fuck 'em . We'll see ow this goes =]

"You don't have to move, you don't have to speak ;
LIPS FOR BITIN'
You're starin' me down , a dance makes me weak ;
EYES FOR STRIKIN'."

:blush: Isha .

His Girl Friday

I feel happy today !!!
Like utterly happy .
It was obviously because of the fucking insane car ride in Blair's mini-van this afternoon .
--Blasting hideously obscene rap music , mad bass songs , classy Frank Sinatra , YMCA , techno beatzz , air horning innocent bystanders , dancing frenzy while people in their own cars think we're high , so loud Larrie & Ellie got headaches while me and Felicia laughed our asses off watching Blair bob his head up and down the WHOLE car ride there ...
( And this was just from JP to West Ed guys . It was a long ass ride cuz of traffic -- thank goodness ! )
I just . I have the best [boy] friends that were ever created haha . Aurorgy, I cannot live without you .
God . That was just fucking hilarious , I won't get over it for a longggg time =]
Dorothy you should have been there :( Oh well , soon enough I'll be driving, we'll have multiple times like the one I just had.
Thank you for pulling me out of the pit I felt like I was slipping into .
I'm gonna live on this high for at least a little while ;)
Life is good .
Do we start painting tomorrow or what . ?

"We can RunAway , we can RunAwayy ;
There's no reason why we should stay . "

Luv Luv Isha

Kindly Unspoken

Ahhhhhh .
I was about to write a very cynical blog, but then I decided not to .
Yet again . I should really be thinking about how I have food & a house & an education .
I am a drama queen when it comes to blogs . Fack . My inner angst comes out when I sit down at this computer .
Uhm Uhm . How to be happy .
Instead of talking about how I'm completely insecure I feel about some things , let's list the postive :

• I signed up for PHOTOGRAPHY AT REB . Like zomg<3>
• Next semester , Guitar 20 with infamous Karvin, & Danielle Rideout!! Which shall be good . I get to sing . *drool* =D And hot boys please. AND TRIP TO B.C. WITH KARVIN BITCHES ? Eeep !
• Uhm . Math boy (LT) got VERY close today !! I believe it was absent mindedly , but still . Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppp! He's like . Eee . :) And he's super niice too , so it's not just looks kids. It's just I .can't .make .words. .come. .out. .of. .throat .
• Cucumbert (my iPod) is alive and well . I love him , and if he completely dies I'll be devastated .
• I'm just makin' shit up now . Useless pieces of information ! Life is so boring right now , and it's gonna stay like that for a long time . I've changed the title of this blog like five times now , as each song keeps shuffling , keeps attempting to lift my real mood . I'm so dumb sometimes . I feel this contempt for no reason ? It's gonna go away tomorrow . I think it may just be being in this house or something . Or that I have tests tomorrow , or that I'm screwed for Guitar 20 or that. Well . You know .

Gemini: A dream of yours is about to come true, so don't give up hope! You always knew things would work out for you, and you were right..

Do It Do It Or Die . Isha .

I think we have an Emergency

I'm having a bit of an identity crisis today .
Or no , I don't know how to describe this , just a feeling of insecurity today .
I feel like I'm running out of time for something .
Like I'm just wasting this space of life I have , I should be living it to the fullest .
Second - second last - year of highschool , and I'm scared today .
I don't know where I'm going after hs , what I'm going to do with my life .
I don't have a plan , a single plan. Social & Math 20, I have no inspiration for .
I'm only going to concentrate on my 30 courses , the most important , so I can get somewhere with them afterwards .
I think I'm just getting a little exhausted , I need Christmas break . A break from school , and break from my parents , a break from life .
It could honestly just be my room that's dragging my down , a project that feels like it's never going to get finished .
I got my shiny balck back pack today , it's pree hawt .
All I need is a little blush , that black vest and lavender hat from Urban Outfitters , and I'll be set for a new year .
*Sigh* I feel a bit better now that I've written it out . I think everything will come into place, as it should .
I just . Don't wanna loose my closest friends . You're all I got .
Which reminds me .
Deep Dark Secret #1.5 : ____________________________________
Actually, I was about to tell you , but then I decided not too .
Maybe if I keep it to myself, it'll come true.
I need to find you .
My Blue Heaven just popped up on my shuffle . It seems fitting to my predicament right now . I love you TBS . Pull me out everytime .

Luv Luv Isha .

"And it's all too familiar ,
And it happens all the time ,
All the cards begin to stack up,
Twisted heartache into fine
Little peices that avoid an awful crime but it's ,
You I can't deny (You I can't deny) . "

Nothing Else Matters

No thoughts today ,
just want my AA BackPack , Bra , & HeadBand .
Took down ALL my posters today , the room should be on it's way .
EeKay please make it happen for me , PLEASE . I'm begging you .
Moving out half of my stuff today too .
I almost got us the BS tix , but I was told the wrong pass code and lost my chance . Oops .
Fuck . We really need those tickets .
Do dododo do do do .

No luv today ,
Isha .

Oh look Blair's talkin' to me on msn :)

Literally, LOL .

This is a joke to me :
Apparently , Twilight is " the most epic romance since Titanic ."
HAHA. I think it's sinful to compare a fictional teenage phenomenon to a story that made REAL history.
Wait what am I saying ?
Twilight was like totally like based on like a true story like . Like Omg Omg Omg !
Because clearly , Jack Dawson is no match for Edward Cullen , the smoking hot vampire .
Have we really come to falling in love with characters that are untrue in the real world ?
Sad, sad sad . It makes a great book , don't get me wrong . But don't compare the movie to anything . Not even dirt kay ? Let alone the fucking Titanic .
WHICH WAS A REAL LIFE TRAGEDY !
Geez. LOL <33

Luv Luv Isha . I feel happy .

AYayAYayAYay

Jus liv ya lyfe .
I have so many things to do today :(
Gotta budget my time well .
I hope Ellie surprises me with a visit.
Pce .

Luv Luv Isha.

REAL CONFIDENCE BOOSTER

--I had a great time at Tessa's last night . (L)
Cute Boy(s) , Sexy Dancing , Hawt Tubz , Half Naked Kevin , CANDY , swings in doors, Megan peeing outside, soaked socks , ping pong. Good times all around . Cheers :) I love Highschool.

In Other News :

Apparently , I do not dress like a gurl , I am not pretty enough, I think I am a male .
APPARENTLY I'M A LESBIAN BECAUSE I WORE A HAT WITH MY HAIR UP WHEN IT WAS CURLY AND I WORE MY PLAID SHIRT AND PANTS TO THE PARTY .
Apparently all my "friends" talk about how ugly I always look behind my back . Yeah .

Moustafa , you can be a real dick sometimes .
Way to make me feel so down about myself , honestly .
Guys, I know what he said is not true , but it still hurts SO MUCH to have him utter wretched things like that to someone .
You should be fucking happy that I don't have my boobs hanging out all over the place and am up against the boys like they're a strip poll .
Fag ='( . Appreciate what you got .
I happen to think I look really cute when I have curly days , and my clothes are what make me me.
And you fucking idiot ;
I LOVE BOYS MORE THAN YOU KNOW . [Lol, but still. Girls make me sick to my stomach. I feel sorry for boys . Girl are fugly bitches. Only M.A.S. 4 me hehe Kyle !]
Continuing , You Asshole .
Friends, it is true . Moustafa is an arrogant SOB at times , and now you know.
It's not all fun and games with him.
Oh , and guess what ! Of course Mumsies didn't back me up one single bit .
Sorry Ellie , I made a sad blog again after I promised I wouldn't.
But you've got to be fucking kidding me . This is riDICulous.
Dorothy , what do you think ? Tell me on msn ;)

"I put my faith in you , SO MUCH FAITH and then you,
just threw it away . "

--Isha .

Black Mamba

• Book in car Driver's training
• Get rid of the Monster (Painful Dermatology Oppointment)
• American Apparel Sweater (Grey)
• Any other sweaters and maybe the jacket from Divine
• Patch Up Holes in Room / Take down all posters
• Clean Bathroom
• Get paint / start painting
• Have that amazing party !
• Find career
• Find ****
• Stay =]

* White = Done .

Oh Hai Dorothy ?

I actually love your advice :)
You are my Chicken Soup For The Soul .
I'm going to need you forever <333333333333333333333

"SHADOWSSSSSS AND REGRETS
We let go of the rest ."

Luv Luv Isha .

I Fly like Paper, Get High like Planes

This goes against my one blog a day rule , but it's needed .
So Felicia called me, and I kinda forgot what I was going to say about today .
It was going to be really long and drawn out , but now I'm talking to Kyle Cutie on facebook,
and I downloaded as much M.I.A. as I could find, so I'm pretty distracted with these wonderful friends of mine .
EeKay . Omigosh, I was silly today .
Fake tears over fake feelings ? How silly of me. I know you say not to apologize , sorry .
That was the first time I ever did that , I promise you . I am not THAT pathetic .
It was one of those emotional days for me I guess . It was shocking , I had no idea .
I need not start it up again , all my true feelings were revealed in the txts and phone call to come later .
I really did need that .
The dream apperently brought up some sub-conscious thoughts that I guess the letter and my smile were suppressing , but now you know .

Brutal Honesty :
I don't want to see him at school anymore .
I don't want to resurrect these unreal feelings anymore.
I want to forget about him comepletely, but I don't want you to hold back if it moves forward.
I want to be there for you like you are for me . Always .
I want to find my "Jack Meadows" in good time , naturally , and it's gonna be the best friendship that turns into epic relationship .
I love you E , so much my heart will proably explode sooner than I thought . I freaked out a bit for no reason . I'm not one to judge , or feel jealous of .You're one of the best people I've ever known , and I want, no need to keep our friendship forever . There's only like 15 or so people I want , NO NEED that to happen with , including FT/KJL/MAS/AA/KS/BK/DP, you , the works . Again I say Ellie Korchaaaa____ , please stay with me forever . *BlushieTear*

Let's be honest with ourselves ; how many who I've met haven't loved me soon after :)
I guess those feelings today proved I'm human afterall .

"Close your eyes and make believe , this is where you wanna be ...
Forgetting all the memories , try to friggen love 'cause love's forgotten me ."

Luv Luv Isha

I swear to God .

If I don't find anyone by the time I'm 18 , I'm getting a tattoo of ONE of the quotes that has carried me through my lonely life.
Not on my right calf, that's for the big TYGA ;)
Not on my wrist is for my first , the swirly Gemini sign .
Maybe my lower back, so it'll really sting . I mean ring .
Maybe my foot , no , or along my right arm on the underneathish side .

Can't always get what you want .

Life seems to be so repetitive right now .
The only thing I consider new and exciting , is meeting someone new and exciting .
And since THAT'S CLEARLY NOT GOING TO HAPPEN,
Live your life . AYayyAYayyAYayy Jus live ya lyfe .

Find an exit now .
Luv Luv Isha

REGISTERED .

For driving school bitches =D !
In class : three SIX HOUR DAIZ last week of XMAS holiidaiiz , 9AM-3:30PM .
In car : _______________ Must call like as soon as i'm off this comp.

Things To Do :

• Move out of room
• Buy ze paint
• Sand down holes in ze wallz
• Draw the patterns avec Elina
• Paint ze wall
• Buy the Clock / BedFrame / Side table / Desk / Chair
• Do other shit that I can't remember now
• I'm so tired.

Pce

Luv Luv ishaa .

I love you

But I don't like you .
I've come to that peaceful conclusion about mother.
It's okay . I'm going to always be the bigger person now .
I can live again .

Error Operator . (We can't go back)

Luv Luv Isha

Words Defy The Plan

When I can ,
I will .

Heeeeeee I love when The Academy Is... does Smashing Pumpkins covers.
But I hate it when iTunes stops .
How've you been blogging world ?
I haven't visited for 2 effing days ! Crazy .
Nothing eventful has happened of course, nothing that stuck in my mind and I HAD to remember from these past 2 days .
Only that I'm getting addicted to excercising again . Releasing my endorphins ? Yum :) .
No new boys or toys , just the forbidden which will never happen .
But maybe BK is right . Well , not completely , because I do want to have a relationship sometime soon .
This fucking horoscope -- sorry Ellie ilu but. --

"This is the week where single Geminis may well meet someone new. The planetary theme for the next seven days is change for the better, and since the various influences will continue to zone in on romance, you should make the most of every social occasion; declining an invitation could mean missing out. Follow your heart, not your head, when it comes to love. "

HAH :
-Meet someone new ? That's never going to happen , I only meet new girl(friends).
-Zone in on romance , oooooooooo. Please.
WELL . Kay , I did get invited to Lisa Whalen's LRM b-day party thing. And it's going to be a party party, and that's not really my scene. Like at all . Is that really where I want to meet my perfect one Mr. Horoscope ? I don't think so . There are a few people I know that are going , Zoe, Angela, Lisa , Jessica C , Jessica Z, and Shub ; all of which who will be getting piss drunk . I'm not in for that . Guess I'm "MISSING OUT" . My bad .
- Follow my heart . My big , dissapointed, swelling heart that would jump at moment to give a good boy real love, but is never given the chance ?
-Love . I love you . Some of dem bishes (M.L.F.) Blarvin , & Dee .

Life . I'm hungry . SEE YA <3

Luv Luv Isha .

Swirly Goodness In Tree Form

DESICIONS DESICIONS .
So many to make =(
At least I got some time with you today.
It's needed on a regular basis .
Time to go excercise so I can maybe keep something constant in my life .
=] Getting Healthier . Pce .

Luv Luv Isha .

No not this time ....

No blogs today children , for today I have to study for a big Bio test .
Study away for a future that I don't where it's heading .
It's 8 :11 now , I should go .
All I wanna do though ,
is sing loudly to articulate and beautifully angry Paramore songs,
and Danse Macabre to coooool illScarlett jams .,
drink some tea ( Earl Gray of course!)
and chill to the empty home I am confined in .
Confined is the wrong word . Blessed with . There we go .
It's nice not having to listen to the biggest negative black hole sitting beside me complain about every . single . thing . known to man .
Oh folks , that'd be me mams! If you hadn't known .
It's wrong to say bad things about the person who gave you life .
I am a sinner . Lover&Drunk , as Alexisonfire would say . (Fans get my drift)
I wish you were over . And you means you . Saturday :)
Breathe , live , find him .

Luv Luv Isha .
<3

Decode

About 15 minutes earlier I posted a very cynical blog about my horoscope .
It's funny because I had a relatively good day , pretty normal which I hate , but I was fairly happy for the most part .
As soon as I sat down to this computer and began putting words to screen , they all suddenly became very muffled and angry , for no apparent reason .
Maybe it was like my automatic internal vent or something .
But I deleted it , figured I better not be so angry at nothing .
Everything is going pretty fine , no big .
I was a bit stressed yesterday , as you could tell .
I dunno where I'm going , but it better be somewhere good .
Somewhere great .
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LOL ! I just was on nexo reading Dorothy's friends blogs ,
one of the titles was " && I think I'm adorable =P "
with 2 pictures of herself ?
WHO>DOES>THAT>>>>>>>>
LOL sorry Dorothy if she's your bff but . LOL . That's just . Kinda self centered to me but I've probably done something similar haha .
God . People just make me laugh sometimes .

OH YA AND ELLIE CAN YOU PLEASE NOT TELL ME TO LOOK AT JM CUZ IT JUST SETS MYSELF FOR DISSAPOINTMENT SO I'D RATHER WE NOT BRING HIM UP .
And I mean really try not to this time .
I can't do it anymore =( . And I'm not going completely out of my way to "try and talk to him" .
It doesn't work like that for me , and I also feel it too unnatural .
Plus he was with the girl this afternoon .
-Time Shall Tell -

Luv Luv Isha .

It's true .

I currently feel ...
Uninspired .
I don't feel like continuing to try and do well in school ,
it just feels like it's all slipping away for some reason .
It could be that I don't know what I'm going to do after highschool . I mean , I don't have a dream to work hard for , nothing to strive towards .
I literally have no clue whre my life is going , no stability . Nothing to hope or believe in , just Dorothy :)
My mind just seems to drift somewhere else these days . It's weird , and I can't concentrate on anything that's important in real life .
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I've been sitting with this blog for 30 minutes now trying to write something else , but all I could do was listen to some Paramore and talk to BRK & Dee , and stare blankly at this computer screen .
Maybe that's all I need to do .
I need to relax and not take life too seriously . Just do the best I can . (Y) <-- thumbs up on MSN .
But the best is not good enough right now .
Sleep . Do better.

Luv Luv Isha .

Mama

We're all full o' lies .
Mama , we're meant for the flies .
Stop asking me questions ,
I hate to see you cry !
Mama , we're all full of lies .

Count Your Blessings .

JonesTown Massacre.

Look it up if you think YOUR having a bad day .
Novemeber , 1978 . Guyana , South Africa .

Jim Jones , a reverend at the time , told the 900 hundred people - including 300 children - of the town at the time that they were no longer worth living for ,

and convinced them to drink cyanide to die a death of dignity and peace .

Jones told the people it would be a quick and painless death , sweet in taste, amongst the screaming children's voices who were injected with cyanide instead of drinking the deathly cocktail laid out for the other civilians in a huge metal basin .

Effects of Cyanide include : Extreme difficulty in breathing , Cardiac Arrest and Seizure .

I watched the CNN documentary on this yesterday with Moustafa . 20th anniversary , surviors described the horror of the genocide , along with picutres and videos footage .

Bone shattering , mind bogling , riveting , disgusting .

Count. Your . Blessings .

NO MORE SAD BLOGS .

YOU . MY GOD, YOU .
I'm starting to think that my soulmate actually isn't a male , afterall .
I actually had no idea you were going to do that . Caught me off by surprise , and that's what I needed . Honestly , know one does that kind of thing for me just randomly. Completely . RANDOMLY . =] That is so you . It's funny because I say the exact same thing about you when you say , "Did he really look ? =( Guess he wasn't . I look so bad today . " YOU LOOK GREAT EVERY MO FUCKIN DAY . Lol honestly . I think we're going to be telling each other that for the rest of our lives , but I don't mind . Anything for you . I swear . A n y t h i n g . I'm sooo glad we found each other. It's weird how a bond comes between two people . And I'm not just talking between us , I'm talking about the special one I have with EACH and EVERY FRIEND of mine . I am a lucky gurl , sure am . Each one is completely different , and it feels just right . I can't ever express this in words enough though . I'm always afraid of expressing too much love for you , but then you always turn it right around for me and do something like you just did . So now I feel completely and utterly safe with you . As you should with me. I s'ppose you are . You and I seem to be joined at the hip ....
I hope it stays that way for good .

AS FOR THE GEEZER THING . What can I say ? I mean . Boys are stupid . They are statistically show to be 2 years ahead --- I MEAN BEHIND ( get my reference to your video =] ?) --- of girls smartness and mentally . They won't ever fully understand what we want . Sweetie , and I mean SWEET-TEA . I know he seemed like he was perfect . All the same interests , oh he's gorgeous and slim , his life "planned" out ? His only issue , the thing you were searching ever so hard for in the beginning so you wouldn't like him , (fail lol!), was that he knows WAY too many girls that aren't you . In truth , I know oh too well what it feels like to like someone so much , and to have not let him know and it has become too late . NOT THAT IT'S TOO LATE FOR YOU , cuz it certainly does not mean you cannot make good friends with him first . I mean , that's how it starts doesn't it ? But I just . When you were sad this afternoon I actually could NOT think of a thing to say because I was just so distraught that one boy brought you down . The look on your face hurt my heart , and I was actually glad the Graham blocked your view . This is quite selfish of me to ask you to stop thinking about him ; and I just had a run it with forbidden JM too . I dunno cutie . All I want to say really is that HE IS NOT THE ONLY BOY EVER AND IT IS NOT THE END OF THE WORLD ! For one, I'll always be there :) . Now , you can't get the satisfaction of physical attraction from just me , I know . But the affection part is there 5000% . Literally . Dearest , you get so many chances at boys , and oh how the jealously trickles in me ! Not like I hate you jealously , just darn, that girl's got what the boys want ! So you shouldn't be too too sad that one kid that didn't attach to you as quickly as you wanted him too let you down . There's no reason that you should panic that you won't meet him either, if in the end you still desire his soul to be one with yours . Because since you have the mad connection with me to him , it's not like it's impossible .

Lover . Just calm down , take a minute , breathe . Don't get ahead of yourself , all good things will come in time . That's what I've learned to live by , and for me , it works . I love you to the end of time kid , don't go away alright ? I hope this helped you .

Luv Luv Isha .

P.S. HI DOROTHY <3 !!

Lost And Found .

I found a flaw my character today .
I'm afraid of change .

I'm afraid of trying to become someone I'm not .I mean . I feel like I'm in a rut right now ,
nothing excites me , nothing makes me really feel incredible . Coming over to take down the posters today EK , and you rushing it , I felt RUSHED ! I mean , don't ge tme wrong . EYE / ELL / YU . But like , even thought this seems like a minimal thing , I am freaked out . A change in room , adding color and life to my effortless room , it's what I want , what I feel like would be a good thing for me . Taking down those silly band posters that I didn't even like was for the best . Just having everything the same for so many years, and literally ripping them down, I was just liek "Whoa." But it's done, it's over with , and change is coming . Convince me that this is going to be amazing in the end and that I won't regret it , like the best friend that you are =]. Kayp ?
This is like the time I drastically changed my style , and especially my hair . All the besties from Aurora remember, the birds nest as Pardeep so lovingly called it . I knew that if I had kept the way I looked forever , I would not move forward as a person . I would not be able to live my life the way I do now , prouder of the way I look, my style , the person I have become and am still becoming . I think though , starting Monday . Since I cannot go running outside , I will start excercising every single school day (5 days) in thee mother fucking home . I could yearn to loose a few pounds . This will give me something to look forward too , something to accomplish maybe ? No goal weights , that's too dissapointing . But maybe we really should do this instead of sitting around at home when you get there from your spare . Actually do something . This is going to make me feel better .
Ah , change . Another change I am afraid of is the one thing I supposedly "desire" the most . A . Relationship . I over think it , and I am wayy to insecure and indecisive about myself . I get cocky and oversensitive , think he's lookin' at me , when in reality, he's probably not . *Sigh* " I want someone provocative and talkative but it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower ." Well said CIWWAF. I don't think I'm THAT shallow though , I feel like I have some depth and am somewhat of a decent person who can interest people . At least I hope.

I guess all I'm saying is . Today I feel insecure about myself .

Luv Luv , Isha .

Lest We Forget .

August __ , 1914 - November 11 , 1918 .
Rest In Peace .

If I'm Just Bad News, Then You're A Liar

Guys . This past weekend has been incredible .

-1! .For number one , first of all , first and foremost ?
I deleted my nexopia account . Amazing isn't it !
Farewell {M}akeDamnSure; . You were great while you lasted.
But I figured , it's time to grow up , get out, and get fresh .
I had lost faith in blogging for about a week , I didn't know what to say and where to say it , but now that that's gone , I can focus my full energy on this BlogSpot , and give to me , and you , the reader , the best blogs I can . I love writing . It gives me a way to share my interest in the world , and a way to express myself. I know you like it ;)
-2@. Sleepover @ Ellie's , Epic Exciting Eccentric.
--MAC makeup/PENCILSHARPENER , trip to Whyte , in search of the baseball shirt , scarf and the man & woman bookends ? ALL found, proud of us. =]
---A stop at Cargo & James Tea . A great little place in Edmonton , if you're into that sort of thing .Not for the snooty, sophisticated type , but more for the ones who are looking for a gentle , calm and quiet place ( WHO PLAY DRAGONETTE SONGS IN THE CAFE!) to chat with best friends , drink Early Gray & the best Cappucino he could make , eat sausage & veggie rolls warmed up from the heart , and devour caramel and mint Blondies that make your mouth just plain orgasm .
---Staying up 'till 3 o'clock in the morn , watching The Happening, then freaking out for 2 hours over the Mayan fucking calender (2012) , Vanga, the Ванга fortune teller who predicted the bombing of the World Trade Towers , WWIII in 2010 after 4 attemps of assination on 4 major political leaders (European), the first black president to be the last president of the United States EVER ? , etc. etc. and how we were going to die pretty soon . Yeah , we're dumb, but it makes a good story .
---Muddled & burnt pancakes in the morning , of Mickey Mouse , bow ties, butterflies , flowers, mis-shapen hearts , horses , stomachs, and food ol' rectums as her dad said so. Covered with bananas, chocolate icing, syrup, butter , orange and strawberry jam. Milk & Chocolate milk included .
---Turn it around, go back to the mall for jackets , come home with an amazing vest and a shade of red, seeing the forbidden boy & trying to chase but fail, (JM)! Momz histerical as usual , delrious and to the point. Cats, cuddling , couch , lean Cuisine? End to a perfect day.
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Be careful and wise in choosing who your friends are . You wouldn't be much without them .
They create you, just like I am creating this blog . This is the new era in my life , a turning point, and according to my horscope , something incredible should happen on Wednesday and crash Sunday , but I am skeptical, so we'll see .
Thank you Ellie for being you and being with me . Don't ever leave .... I'm serious .
And Oh Hai , it's snowing now .

Luv Luv, Isha .

Everytime I Wanna Post A Blog On Nexopia

But I don't .
Which makes me sad because I think no one reads them anymore ,
but it's so much easier than this thing .
If you read my blog , make yourself known !
(To me at least. It would make me tres happy :] )
So, there was this boy I thought I kinda liked .
I here a lot of things about him , and that he already has a gurlfriend .
I truly and honestly respect that. Thinking to myself today , I analyzed my feelings about him .
There are none. I only was taken back by his pretty, pretty face . I don't know anything else about him , only rumors through others , and we have never personally personally met . And that is fine with me , for I want to actually meet my perfect boy and have him fall in love with me right of the bat . When I find him , I'll actually know it's him .
So Ellie can we please stop talking about him for further notice and so I can stop tricking myself into thinking I like him ?
Mmkay , thanks :) .
I want my Jack Meadows , but real life version .
Mmmmhmmmmmmm. <333333

First Snow Fall In Edmonton =D ?

And I have a lot of feelings to sort out .
Pce it , and make Ellie's birthday present .
What will it be ?
WHO KNOWS .
How was your day ?

I'm Canadian , Yet I Feel Incredibly Proud .

History was made yesterday guys . It's incredible to me .

I feel like the world is really going to change somehow .

Hope is coming , change is here .

A new start of things come ?

Change in my life , particularly ?

A boy , perhaps ? (blush) I dunnooooo.

But I wish . Ever so dearly .

Can I handle it ?

Sleeping Sickness

Eeeep !
So this is my first blog ever on this blogspot thing.
It feels really weird because it doesn't have the same feel as the blog from Nexopia , which I am most infamous for . Anyways do people really read these things ?
I don't really understand how this thing works . Ellie help?!
Oh p.s. kids , Ellie Korchagina has become one of my absolute best friends .
This gurl is the deepest and truest person I have known, other than myself .
No jks jks ! I'm not shallow or self preserved , I promise you that .
But continuing , though we only truly became friends this year , I feel as if I've known her for the same amount of years as my other best friend , Felicia Tam .
There are so many things I could say about you Ellie , so many that I cannot put them down on paper . (Computer) .
I just feel as if we are connected so very tightly , and I do not want to lose you . Ever .
Please, just be my best friends until I die, okay ? I read ALL your blogs today , I felt so treasured . I love you with all my heart EKay , I honestly , completely and truly do .
Oh god I wish this thing had emoticons like Nex :( Does it ?!
Though things with FT have been patchy this week , I have come to find that I am a COMPLETE idiot , and nothing was ever wrong in the first place .
I took your advice EK , and gently nudged that we barely talked at school anymore ;
she said "I KNOWW!!! :( " and things proceeded to get back to normal , so my heart is relieved .
That's why I kept saying it wasn't such a HUGE deal , cuz I was pretty sure things were okay .
I know her just that well .
So new friends of blogspot , if you're out there and you actually subscribe or whatever to my blog ,
WHICH I HOPE YOU DO CUZ I LIKE WRITING A LOT ,
you will be hearing of these 2 very much , as well as all my other amazing friends who do some crazy shiit. =]
SO also , each of my blog titles will of course be song titles from the song that has popped up on my iTunes shuffle at that particualr moment.
Today's is a song from City & Colour . Beautiful man .
Beautiful men though , or maybe boys because we are barely 16 -17 ish , will be saved for a later date , a later blog . <3
So world , PCE .
Luv Luv , Isha.