I Fly like Paper, Get High like Planes

This goes against my one blog a day rule , but it's needed .
So Felicia called me, and I kinda forgot what I was going to say about today .
It was going to be really long and drawn out , but now I'm talking to Kyle Cutie on facebook,
and I downloaded as much M.I.A. as I could find, so I'm pretty distracted with these wonderful friends of mine .
EeKay . Omigosh, I was silly today .
Fake tears over fake feelings ? How silly of me. I know you say not to apologize , sorry .
That was the first time I ever did that , I promise you . I am not THAT pathetic .
It was one of those emotional days for me I guess . It was shocking , I had no idea .
I need not start it up again , all my true feelings were revealed in the txts and phone call to come later .
I really did need that .
The dream apperently brought up some sub-conscious thoughts that I guess the letter and my smile were suppressing , but now you know .

Brutal Honesty :
I don't want to see him at school anymore .
I don't want to resurrect these unreal feelings anymore.
I want to forget about him comepletely, but I don't want you to hold back if it moves forward.
I want to be there for you like you are for me . Always .
I want to find my "Jack Meadows" in good time , naturally , and it's gonna be the best friendship that turns into epic relationship .
I love you E , so much my heart will proably explode sooner than I thought . I freaked out a bit for no reason . I'm not one to judge , or feel jealous of .You're one of the best people I've ever known , and I want, no need to keep our friendship forever . There's only like 15 or so people I want , NO NEED that to happen with , including FT/KJL/MAS/AA/KS/BK/DP, you , the works . Again I say Ellie Korchaaaa____ , please stay with me forever . *BlushieTear*

Let's be honest with ourselves ; how many who I've met haven't loved me soon after :)
I guess those feelings today proved I'm human afterall .

"Close your eyes and make believe , this is where you wanna be ...
Forgetting all the memories , try to friggen love 'cause love's forgotten me ."

Luv Luv Isha