There Goes My Hero ...

I watched Across The Universe today at Jane's house ;
And odd pair I know , it didn't mix very well .
I secretly cried in my hoodie at the funeral scene near the beginning
Specially when it was the little black boy who died
His voice was beautiful in singing Let It Be.
The wierd acid trip bus / carnival tent thing ... I didn't like that .
But good story indeed :) Jim Sturgess is quitee cute .
AND I DIDN'T KNOW THAT LUCY IS EVAN RACHEL WOOD A.K.A. MARILYN MANSON'S GIRLFRIEND !!!!!
Eeyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa .
For the situ , I feel like A Decade Under The Influence by Taking Back Sunday is appropriate .
Not just because it's playing right now .

And are you waking up slowly ?
A nothing but lonely ,
Are you waking up holding ,
HOLDING your breath ?
And are you looking for something ?
I promised you one thing :
I promise I'll always , ALWAYS be there .
Isha
omgit'stimetoreadkieran'sblogs :)

Tomorrow

I
'm gonna sit down and read all of Kieran's Blogs with a cup of Early Grey in my Strabucks Cup =]
Right now I
'm going to drown myself in organizing
my bookshelf .
It hasn't really hit me that I have floor for Parmore / No Doubt ...
Like I don't really believe it , it's too good to be true right now . I feel like something will go wrong and I won't get in to the concert at all
*knocks on wooden desk in front of her*
I'm so itchy LOL . I can't even describe this . Lubriderm better save me , I know it'll take a while .
All that is good and holy in the world, please cure Liona Kay, fast.

<3
It Makes No Difference Too Me .
Isha

Get ready Ellie

We've Got A Big Big Mess on Our Hands Tonight

Sing it , OW .

.

What a fucking unpleasant way to wake up .
I asked where we were going today ,
And she absolutely and completely shrieked at me for something completely random ...
Like Whoa it's 9:30 am and
That just ruined my enitre day already .
Fuck
I hate that I hate the sound of my own mother's voice too



:(

Wow Fuck Man , 3rd Blog In 1 Day....Proves I'd Do Anything For You

I JUST HAD A STROKE

PARAMORE
JULY 16
EDMONTON ALBERTA
CANADA
REXALL PLACE
JULY 16
NO DOUBT
ELLIE I'M CRYING TEARS RIGHT NOW
SALTY SALTY SWEET TEARS
OF JOY
AND ANGER AND ANGST
IF I DON'T GET FLOOR
OR A REALLY GOOD SPOT IN SEATS
I'LL JUST FLAT OUT CUT MYSELF REALLY BADLY
7.16 Edmonton, AB @ Rexall Place
IS THAT JULY 16?
I'M JUST MAKING SURE OKAY
OKAY
DON'T TELL ANYONE OKAY
IT'LL BE JUST BEWTEEN US
I WANNA GO TO VANCOUVER ON JULY 17
SO THAT ON JULY 18
I CAN SEE THEM AGAIN ...
ELLIE IF YOU'RE DOWN FOR THE ROAD TRIP STARTING THEN
I'M DOWN TOO
JUST ONE DAY I'LL BE GOING TO PARAMORE AND NO DOUBT
I WANT YOU TO COME THOUGH CUZ YOU'RE MY BEST FRIEND BUT
YOU DON'T HAVE TO CUZ YOU DON'T LIKE THEM
IT'S COOL
I'D GO BY MYSELF
ANYWAYS
WHY AM I STILL TALKING IN CAPITAL LETTRS
KAITHNXBAI
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Cake

So I seriously MUST LEARN this bass tab and kick Kevin's hard ass for the battle .
And I must look REALLY cool while doing it
Oh I wanna rock it so badly ! Need to get the basser's stance.
Impress Mr. I Owe You My Life Now
Oh, he's so cute....
Sorry . Outburst of admiration there . Anways .
Ugh . Arvin was right though, it really was kinda like fate today /
I hope I can start getting to just talking to him now =) Just wanna make guhd friends is all .
Physics I guess I'm just gonna stick it out , 30 am NOT DOING which makes me feel good
Cuz then I can DEF take Guitar 30 :) YAY
New bedframe YAY ! Next new bookshelf .
Tomorrow I'm going to Whyte Ave to pick up some things ...
Hmmm what else ..
Not much
Heartburn god .
Oh fuck and my mother just discovered the world of surround sound television ,
she's watching HP 5 , and it's like there's a fucking earthquake in my house every 6.6 seconds .
argh

Isha

Mama Take This Badge Off Of Me

I can't use it, anymore .
It's gettin' dark, too dark to see ...
Feel like Knockin' On Heaven's Door
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Anyways . For like one second there I almost lost the inspiration to work out because of physics .
This is getting to be a realy problem guys . Well not REALLY, but in the near future it's going to be .
I'm 85% positive that I won't need it for post-secondary . Better make that 110% so I can justify myself .
But none the less , my parents are really trying to make me take it . I'll deal with 20 somehow sure , but when it comes to 30 next year... we're really gonna have to see .
I should find out about that tutoring thing . I'm just SOOOOOOOO lazy to go, I seriously don't want to . Gawd .
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I'm super excited about getting furniture , I can hardly wait any longer :@
Thursday maybe even Wednesday evening if I can squeeze it in but probably not I'm going to IKEA to get my red bookshalf =)
Then fill her up with books and CD's and all magix sorts of things ,\
I'm trying REALLY hard not to make a list of what else I wanna buy .
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SOCCER PLAYING FISH =D
Hellz I appreciated that, thanks !
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Danielle & I are gonna sing a duet for Killing Me Softly ,
don't wanna brag but I think we sound kinda killerrr =]
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I'm making my own grocery list , and You're gonna take me to the Russian Store to get that Nutella , and HONEY .
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I love music ... Like . soooooooooooooooooooo much
Ahh <3 .

SALVATION

is hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .

OOPS

I accidentally scratched my rashish rash too hard and now I've bled .
SICK . I know . I think I'm just psychologically itchy everywhere .
Need to go bathe in camomille lotion or something .
Life
Goes
On
So , just to let you know I really wanna talk to him and make friends :)
Just kinda show him who I really am , you know .
TALK to super cute boys and maybe one will actually take an interest in me
The more I think about hiim though ...
the dreamier he gets
For a 15 yr old of course . LOL
And the water polo thing ... it's sort of very damn sexy.
AH STOP

DADDY SAID YOU GOTTA SHOW THE WORLD THE THUNDER
Isha

I dunno .

Jessica is telling me some story abut how her friend is mad at her ,

it just seems so pointless, all these girlie fights. Not just her ,

I mean everybody in the enitre world . And I do this too , so don't think I think I'm above it or anything :)

Just generally , there are much more important things in life that need to be worried about then omgz she won't liek talk to me .

It's just all very .. superficial ? Plastic.... ?

I just wanna go to the beach and sit back with my best friends ,

play some intense volleyball / soccer , learn to swim , be carefree , find a tasty alcoholic beverage that I like :) That's one of my thousand ginities I have to break .

I'd like school to be over . Dayum .

Argh . Mother likes to assert power by threating little things .

At least they're not actually meaningful things to me, she can have her precious power :)

Just . Childish .

Shake It Like A Pom Pom

Isha

School

is making me feel REALLY REALLY lame .
I have no enthusiasm when I go there anymore . It isn't fun .
Bio 30 made me wanna get up in the morning . Now Chem is just blah .
I can't even sing in Guitar cuz my throat is all scraggly.
Arvin doesn't sit with me anymore :( Physics goes by sorta quick but sucks all along
And then my English teacher is just . SO BAD . She feels like she's being creative and innovative,
geting these kids to think, be inspired =D Learn English !
NO. It just does not work for you Mrs. Park . =S
I just feel soooooooooooooo dull right now . Like I'm losing my personality too .
Don't get bored of me !

Won't someone Stop This Song ?
So I won't sing along
Someone Stop This Song
So I won't sing a LOVESICK MELODY
Is gonna get hte best of me tonight
But you won't get to me
If I don't sing ....

Isharghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .
=]

OKay I Decided What To Blog

Well . I'm sick of wearing metal earrings with backings .
I think I'm going to wear these sticks for the rest of my life :)
So my ears can breathe and i can take them out every night to let my holes have a rest .
Oh I feel better . 12 gauge would be REALLY cool so i could get the white spirally one in ,
but I'll never make it past 16 proabbly . I think I'm at a 20. That's regular .
It'd be soo easy to trick my parents too cuz i'd just say they LOOK big but their not :)
Oh . Some days I want to get my conch (That's in the ear ) pierced, somedays not .
I think i really need to stay away from piercings since the other ones traumatized me forever !!
Tattoos , I'll be shitting my pants but please make me get my first one just to try it .
All good things come in due time .
Lalalaa
I'm trying to resist making a list really badly .
Omg my eyes are getting tired
I don't wanna work out. SUMMER COME and let me rollerblade everyday !!
Fuck .
I got way too attached. We'll see .


Don't Speak
I know just what you're thinking
SO please stop explaining
DON'T TELL BECAUSE IT HURTS
Isha

Happy ? That was a song lyric ^^^

If You Want To

I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And All You Wanted was somebody who cares .

Tourniquet

Lol thanks Dorothy :)
I'm too lazy to reply back to your comment on blog below , I'll just write it here.
So I got this wicked side table for my room todaii , it's black & gold with chinese what nots on it,
oh it's got character , I'm excited . Tomorrow is bedframe day ,
YAY we've given the other piece of junk to my cousin's hubby to sell .
My parents keep talking about my non existent career ..... I'm scared. I'm only 16 people .
But I should start looking into it .
What scares me the most is that our condo-living together in BC(and/or)NY thing may not ever happen ..
Do you still want it to happen badly?
I want it more than anything . Anything !!! Even a boy in highschool. I'd stay alone for 18 years just for that dream to come true . You're one of the 7-9+ things I can immediately name that I NEVER want to lose touch with .
Oh I meant to say people :)
I feel like this could be an epic battle with my parents in the next 4 years ...
Keep an open mind red , it won't be as easy as you're over 18 you can do whatever the fuck you want.
:) It'll be an uphill battle , and hopefully I'll conquer it ./
So I'm thinking psychology / psychiatry / something to do with that ... for young people ....
And somehow squeeze in professional photography on the side .
SOMEHOW . Photo Journalism is as good as sex to me .
Efan , Doraphree, Elliephant . What are you kids thinking about doing after we get outta hs ?
Any ideas at all ? I could sure darn use sum .
Wow why is there so much Evanescence playing today . That's the title by the way. A song by them
BY THE WAY (rhcp) . Cucumbert head fell off today =S
Like the whole top part that holds his guts in just fell right off . I tried to snap it back into place but it doesn't fit anymore , it's like bent and has a gaping hole.
So now, not only does the back button not work , but neither does the HOLD button .
Which is something that cannot be ignored at times .
Maybe it's time for a newbie . MAYBE . I'm gonna save my cat babysitting money and my hard earned coin wrapping money ($111 !) for a black classic . :)
Good things come in due time . That's what I've been living off today . Wonder what it'll be tomorrow .

Put the you-know-what in the you-know-where
Isha .

Awe.

Delete that angry V-Day post .
Someone changed my mind today .
I think way way way way way to much about everything /
I'm just gonna be me the best way I can , stay with my values and beliefs , do what I wanna .
I have good parents , a beautiful home , food, clothing, education , freedom...
Friends that a different breed , maybe they're everything :)
Everytime I feel like Going Under, I'll just climb back up from the slump and try again.
Concerts, music , live the life . Make a dream . Mke it happen .
It's time for us to take a chance,
it's time for us .

,Well we're just a wet dream for the webzine,
make a scene make a scene make a scene
OR
Shrugusoffyou'reshouldersdon'tapproveasinglewordthatwewro-oh-oh-Ote!

--Isha--

Killing Me Softly With His Song

Might be my new favourite song , purely based on the fact that we learned it in Guitar .
It's so good . Well done Roberta Flack :) But I like The Fugees version wayy better , it's my tone of voice .
I want to sing it really badly , more than Wicked Game .
But the battle for that is tmr , Kevin v.s. Isha v.s. Danielle , Postle thinks it's going to be intense .
I'm just curious who tall blonde god of gr. 10ness is going to vote for ....
I'll get Rachel to spy for me .
Oh my god , my asthma is coming back with a vengence ! It hates my lungs, my bronchioles as well .
I think it's really bad due to the swelling of the rest of my body =S
Oh well , I live :)
Touch O Class , yeah sure I'll dress up .
I had this secret Valentine's Day wish that I keywordwish would have dreamed happened , but it doesn't matter cuz it won't happen anyways :)
I'll just spend it with her ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, =3 couldn't ask for more really .
Ethan , your newest blogs picture made me laugh . Like a LOT . Sorry if it has a deeper undertone or something but , it's adorable .
See now my second favourite Adams is Cousin Itt , but Bryan'll do .

This is Thriller ,
Isha .

I'm Pregnant With Pressure

Not pressure , but the title fit .
I dunno I just feel really heavy :( in thought .
I've got this big bang theory that it's my birth control that's made me have these mood swings .
Cuz I was always sad for a reason before gr 9 , now i get sad for nothing .
Gr 9 is when I started taking accutane --> Birth control 1 year later after I got off the Acc .
And have been taking it since .......... I think that MAY be the cause .
Ah fuck I hate this feeling
And the big puss it's turned me into , I become sensitive to the most illegitement things .
ie . actually no, that's too personal .
Oh guys , I don't know what to do with myself sometimes .
And just for future reference
if i miss the paramore/nodoubt show coming sometime may ish , I will actuallly take my life .
LOL . Except I'll be soooo sad you won't like me anymore . I'll actually go alone if Wyatt can't go .
Even if it's a roadtrip to B.C. or Calgary , I'll go it alone if I must .
Ohhhhhhhhh my fuck .
I'm so afraid that you'll get sick of me red. SO afraid kid .
I need some enlightening .
And a few other things

NTF,
Isha :)

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Dorothy why aren't you on MSN ?
You HAVE to hear what happened to Arvin today !
Cupcake sorry for asking you stupid questions . All my insecurities get drawn up when I'm with you .
Maybe I subconciously feel like you have all the answers.
I don't wanna let you down ever .
That whole conflict thing made me feel like I fail people .
A lot .
But I felt good when you said I was just like Kieran , [deserves a real special girl (boy) ]
I hope you meant ittttttttttttttt
Yeah Dee I'm being as patient as the estrogen and progesterone allow.
oh how I miss Bio 30 :(
Mm.
baby
You look like I need a drink . <3
Cheers

They See Me Rollin'

They hatin'

Patrollin' they tryin'a catch me RIDIN' DIRRTY .

;) No bigz .

Best day with best friend .

OUCH

Fuck Moustafa come back with the car already so I can practice....
Ow
Ow
Ow
At least I forgot about the itch for a period or two...
I gotta make words come out of my mouth once and a while .
I dunno . I'm bored.
LOL Ellie . I wish you were a wizard so you could make that happen . ( Skin fuck go up it's ass and eat itself etc. )

Love's Not A Competition (But I'm Winning) or at least I thought I was .
Isha .

Honest To Blog ?

I've never felt so uncomfortable in my own skin .
I'm sooooooooo sad right now , and nothing can cheer me up .
Only a month from now when this fucking heals.
And if it doesn't go away after that ...
I don't what I'm going to do to myself , but it won't be healthy :(
I know you may think I'm being a huge wuss or really gay or something , but eff off eh ?
You have NO idea how much this sucks .
It's not even funny to say it sucks balls . Or ass. It just fucking sucks . In fact/
It fucking sucks it sucking fucks it's a piece of shit AND I DON'T LIKE IT .
It's gotten everywhere , and it doesn't even burn , it just HURTS , like 70 open sores all over my body without the blood .This makes my muscles sore, oh I wish i could just walk around in my undies and let my skin breathe, but alas no , school requires clothing .
It's been 1 hour since i started writing this blog ,
I went and watched a seductive but mailicious Supernatural , yay .
Then I tried to workout , but it just hurts way too much . I can't even release any endorphins because of this .
Wow
I haven't been this internally sad in a long time :(
I'm still happyish of course . But I just feel disgusting underneath it all
Just So You Know ,
Isha

Adore.

You 3 have me , I won't leave .
I dunno I just don't like being a whiny bitch here .
I feel like blogging brings out the worst of me sometimes .
Whether it be: Manic -- :D / Angry >:< / Depressed :( / etc .
ANYHWAYS ...
I wanna sing Wicked Game in guitar, but I'm friggen shaking in my boots to raise my hand and get up.
No matter how brave I think I wanna be , I don't know if I'll get the inspiration to do it .
I really wanna impress the tall blonde God of Grade 10ness in my class tew . :blush: He's so damn fine !
Kevin says he wants to do a duet with me , so I think I'll get up 100% tomorrow . <3
In other news . My elbow is leaking . LOL I KNOW it sounds gross , and there's no excuse . It is .
But YOU'RE the ones who wanted me to stay , so you're gonna hear about it.
My medication for the skin problem got all over my leg this time , and it's itchy as FUCK . Huge red patch on my thigh , not pleasant .
I just realized that this reaction is going to be exactly what a tatto is like during the healing process --
Which means I can take it :) Woot .
Now, I know we all do it , I do it 24/7 , but the discreet blogs are.... not annoying , they don't bug me .. just confusing I suppose
Trying to figure out who "you" is ,
Someone Somewhere Said Some thingS that may have cauSed Some Sypathy but don't believe, don't believe a word you heard about me ?
Well in case you didn't know, that was just a song lyric. I do that / ALOT . I'm sure ya'll think it's real until you realize the rhyme scheme .
Driver's test in 3 days , whoa . Please pass :(

Stop! Take some time to think , figure out what's important to you .
Isha =)

--Edit-- OH FB HOROSCOPE ! Why are you the best .

Gemini: The time is now! If not now, then when? You can't stew on the issue any longer - make it happen. .

Giant Drag

I feel like deleting blogspot .
It makes me too emotional.
Is there a point in staying for you
I'm in a big slump here. Red , pull me out ?

Vote !

Poor Betty Beamz

Whoa it came out really small . Oh well .

We On Fiya

Iss burnin' hot

Up in da spot

We On Fiyaaaaaaaa

It's Easy To Do, Just Follow These Steps :

1
Cut a hole in the box
2
Put your junk in that box
3
Make her open the box
& That's the way you do it.