I'm Pregnant With Pressure

Not pressure , but the title fit .
I dunno I just feel really heavy :( in thought .
I've got this big bang theory that it's my birth control that's made me have these mood swings .
Cuz I was always sad for a reason before gr 9 , now i get sad for nothing .
Gr 9 is when I started taking accutane --> Birth control 1 year later after I got off the Acc .
And have been taking it since .......... I think that MAY be the cause .
Ah fuck I hate this feeling
And the big puss it's turned me into , I become sensitive to the most illegitement things .
ie . actually no, that's too personal .
Oh guys , I don't know what to do with myself sometimes .
And just for future reference
if i miss the paramore/nodoubt show coming sometime may ish , I will actuallly take my life .
LOL . Except I'll be soooo sad you won't like me anymore . I'll actually go alone if Wyatt can't go .
Even if it's a roadtrip to B.C. or Calgary , I'll go it alone if I must .
Ohhhhhhhhh my fuck .
I'm so afraid that you'll get sick of me red. SO afraid kid .
I need some enlightening .
And a few other things

NTF,
Isha :)