Wake Me When It's Over...

Okay
I am having a problem with __________
I was doing so well
Feeling SO GOOD about myself,
and now I am back to the old habit
And I feel like shit.
Like I am losing it all.
Must control..
Must stop..
No motivation..
Sound familiar anyone?

If This Is A Test

I'm losing my shit.

feel glum.

slept the whole day today.

Always do that when not feeling good

not sick not good

unhappy not good

dunno

just grey

oh BOO you whore

miss alyssa & jingles

lookie lookie.

can you guess what did especially for this post?
bahahaha

California Rest In Peace

Cool
I cannot feel anything
right now
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Capital M-E

I'm getting sick of saying that alot.
I just read your blog and all it said was I,
and I didn't mind reading it ONE BIT.
I guess it made me realize that duh, this blog is about you, us, me.
So I suppose it's okay to say I a billion times.
I don't like it though.
Not very much no not at all.
Anyways.
When my mom says, (yells), DO YOU UNDERSTAND ?
Like. What am I supposed to say? NO, I ONLY SPEAK KOREAN.
What does she expect?
I also dislike when she says a trillion punishments like, you're NOT driving, NOT going to the party, tell one of your friends to pick up the present but they are not allowed in the house, they have to get it outside of the door, etc etc.
You don't ACTUALLY think that specifically is happening do you? I dunno. I guess I know where my overexaggurative nature comes from.
I always tell her whatever she wants JUST to shut her up.
Honest. I'm sorry. I know that I am a horrible person for say that,
but it's to a point where I don't give a damn (about the telephones) <-- you won't get that!
I just don't care anymore.
There will never be a salvagable relationship.
We are two strangers living in the same house.
It's unfortunate.
Everytime I see a mother-daughter thing on TV or a movie or anything, I haveto look away.
Anywho.
I'm sort of almost but not quite in the slump of school.
It's become SO ROUTINE I just want it to end so badly.
At the same time not because I won't have classes with any of these fabulous people ever again,
but then again.
No more hard CORE subjects.
Imagine a world with no CHEM, PHYSICS, SOCIAL, or ENGLISH.
I can't even.
All I would have is ♥Guitar♥ & Math with kozaky VICH :) <-- you won't get that either!
What a life.
Then I could concentrate on a job scolitis <-- I know, I'm sorry. But it makes sense to me
And the tatters of course!
And grad
WHICH BY THE WAY DOROTHY
is slowly getting better! No promises though.
Hmm.
What else.
A boy who shall remain nameless made me sit on his lap today a part of the bus ride, including arm around my shoulder...
I know nothing in the world would ever happen ever because no one would willingly want that with myself,
but I got fluttery for a few minutes there.
I wished for like 6 and a half seconds that we
JUST KIDDING or am i?
It just felt... Nice. I dunno. this sounds gross
because I don't know what it feels like to be
Unfortunately I am a female
I cannot help it and I HATE IT
Hello gr.10 immatureness but not really because I gave up 1/2 way through gr 11 for boys
Go on ask me Kyle, who's the boy!

Bye Hayley <33

I Ate Too Much :(

I honestly ate too much.
I am very mad at myself.
Fuck

I love singing
I cannot wait for REB
Fuck

My blogs have been so dumb lately.
Capital M-E.
I hate you!

My scarf attracts crumbs on purpose. I know it,

Plan T

(for tattoos)
Oh Alyssa you make me laugh :)
I cannot wait to see you and discuss your future!!
And do a bunch of other fun things .//
Hmm. What to say?
Nothing is really going on.
Incredibly routine
I don't want to do my Chem test tomorrow
but Friday I get a FIELDTRIPMUTHAFUCKAS
for gc only
Oh how arrogant
anyways
my amurrikan cuzin is back in town mmmmmhmmmmmmm
REB is now 15 days and STILL no fucking practise.
Max made a good point though
because this happened when auditions were approaching ;
we barely practised like the week before
when we had 2 WHOLE weeks
and then I guess we were good enough to GET IN..
So..
yah... I've been singing my part by myself so. I dunno how this is gonna go
OOps
I just overdosed on prmr
I am gonna keep going
I'm sorry
this is the shallowest blog ever
to date
thus far
in time
of ths space continum
however

ALL I WANTED WAS YOU.

Oops

I just did something I am not supposed too.
But I just couldn't help.
I'm going to get sick from this.
Oh godforbid.
I am so scared for REB////
Of getting ill and not being able to sing at my prime ;
Of us not practising enough
OH but we'll be fine.
Take care of yourself you dumb fuck
Oh why did I JUST do that to myself...

you know that i could USE SOMEBODY

B/c It HAS 2 B So Lonely

To be the only one who's holy...

It's just my humble opinion,
but it's one that I believe in :
You don't deserve a point of view
If the only thing you see is you.
I heard this Silverstein song today,
and if you were to look up the lyrics,
Kyle would know EXACTLY WHO is was written about.
It's uncanny. I will tell you the title of the song someday when you ask me.
Because if I posted the title here, you would all figure it out
and I would get in trouble.
/
I miss a certain azngurl right naow.
Saturday was just weird. I could have been laser tagging or being with my best friends
instead of hanging in that shit hole.
I'm still pissed.
Well not really.
Ilprmr.
BAH DAP BAP BA DAP BAH BAH DAP
BAH DAP BAP BA DAP BAH BAH DAP
Visual Presentation 2 Anthropologie...
Chapters terra losa + mall
Coles so I'm right by felicia :)
Cookies By George with RACHEL <33333333333333333
HMV = last resort. ilu kevin
These are the places I will apply for
oh and possibly AA but only because Ellie asked.
DOLLAR_RAMA with ZOE lol!!!!!!!!!!!
Perhaps.
TATTOO :)
I found a lyric that I'm going to get for good measure
And I need to find a paramore lyric..
see none of them really...
appeal in the sense of what kind of a LYRIC i'd want to get,
you know what I mean?
Like Oh Star fall down on me let me make a wish upon you?
Like
There stuff as AWESOME AS IT IS.
I dunno
We'll see :)
I'm going to spend all of second semester reading every single lyric of prmr critically,
seeing what would be the perfect sentence
do you want to know what sentence I'm getting for most likely sure?
You'll have to ask me
Cuz I'm not telling you.

Come Fly Away

I'm sorry Dorothy!
I know I never make sense on these blogs...
Haha it's not me being DEEP;
I just basically talk to myself so only I understand them..
I apologize. I will try not to do that.
Uhm
Moustafa is doing fine now...
Basically last night was a TOTAL DRAG.
I knew that was going to happen. Wish I hadn't wasted my weekend on that.
Hmmmmmmm
What else..
I went to bed @ 3 this morning.
I was reading :)
I have nothing else to say for now
I am tired and forgot everything.
NO OH MY GOODNESS I REMEMBER!
I am going to take care of myself from now on
for REB
I haven't been lately.
No more milk.
No iced cofee
XL Steeped Tea with NOTHING in it
Nightly Nasal Ritual
Sanatize hands 24/7
Dont touch mouth
EAt properly
I haven't been doing that either.
Uhm yah
k that's it
I hate how everything turns out into I .
Capital M-E

The Christmas List That Will Never Exist

-- OPERATION (board game)
--Polaroid CAMERA!
GiftCards GALORE
*Chapters
*Anthropologie
*HMV
-- Prmr BNE Box Set
-- Prmr Elephant teeshurtt,


-- Hayley Williams...
Baby All I Want For Christmas,
is you.

YOU'RE GOT TO REACH OUT

more.

I am not excited for tonight for some reason.
Perhaps it's because of the boys.
I dunno.
Yeah no I actually think that is why.
Maybe not.
But I think I'm going to lie to you just for fun :)
I mean,
is that what goes through your head?
I wonder
About Everything.

I Wake Up To My Mom Screaming,

DON'T HIT ME !

It's funny how things like that work out Mom isn't it.
For Dorothy,
the final UPDATE:
Moustafa had 2 stents put in the Left Main artery,
the largest surrounding the heart --
95% blcokage, a hairline away from having the most severe heart attack someone could possibly have.
Lucky it was goddamn caught huh ?
Anywho.
I won't say what happened today, did enough of that @ skewl.
I'm so hungry but I can't eat.
Selfish ... if you think YOU'RE the one who's being selfish...
oh, how wrong you are.
You know that's the calibre of what I'd do for you.
You have a problem, you tell me, and I deal with YOU.
It's not like you ignored my situ anyways.
It just came out slightly less discussed than yours did.
That might have even been for the better, like I didn;t mind AT ALL .
What did you expect ?
Am I the one who says, NO, I have a problem so you can shut your mouth.
LOL. You know I wouldn't.
So. That deals with that. Not selfish.
You just wish you could have been selfless,
in dealing with what might be one of the BIGGEST ISSUES you've faced,
and in that thought of wanting to be selfless,
you were being just that.
"It's the thought that counts"
However true that might be.
:) Don't worry about it.

BUT THE WORLD DON'T CARE IF YOU ARE OR NOT THERE BECAUSE YOU'RE
on drugs.

When There's No Way Out

The only way out is to GIVE IN.

UPDATE :
Moustafa is back at the hospital .
Angiogram @ 8:30 a.m. tmr ...
if there is blockage, angioplasty with a possibilty of a stint put in place.
Mentioned in the educational video we watched at the hospital today,

Risks Include :
+ Heart Attack
+Stroke
+Death

FUCKING COMFORTING HUH.
So yeah uh...
Tomorrow I might cry at school just to let you know if ANYONE IS READING THIS. Or cares/
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Don't worry Dee, I am not going to quit grad council whatsoever.
I'm going to start changing my attitude towards SOME members now.
A.K.A. not let them walk all over me.
I just got really frustrated you know?
Like.. worst feeling in the world to not be able to say what I am thinking,
not be able to express my ideas.
I feel like I have so much input to give,
and it is just completely botteled up inside my neck and chest,
and so I explode it all on here.
But no more.
I'm not going to live GC like this.
I promise :)
=================================================================

Ugh.
Honestly I jjust cannot think of anything but Moustafa now.
And all you can think of is yourself.

Use Somebody

Currently my fuckin FAVOURITE cover by prmr,
orginally a KingsOfLeoon song.
It's so good.
Fuckin'.
Ilysm.

K. UPDATE!
So have you ever seen those commercials on Spike TV,
where like super famous male athletes are all , "Check up... or check OUT."
Trying to advocate to those guys out there who are too afraid to see a doctor,
in the even of that doctor grabbing their balls and finding out something wrong.
Moustafa is one of those men, which is why he skipped out on his test yesterday.
However, he went today :
" After six mintues of walking on zee ddamn treadmills I could not even breathe ANYTHING! (Makes loud panting noises& sticks out his tongue) "
Lol! So tmr @ 2:30 he's going to talk with the cardiologist about getting an angioplasty procedure.
Stick a catheter(TUBE) up your femoral atery, push it all the way to your pulmonary artery I BELIEVE, do a little scrub a dub dub to clean out the plack,
then put a stint so the atery stays open.
Oh Moustafa :(
What kind of a mess are you in!
....

GC meeting tmr.
I have a problem,.
I keep getting....
stepped on.
Like I'm the fucking front door mat to the Access Room.
I haven't been able to contrubute to any of the fucking committees I'm on..
As soon as my mouth opens,
I hear a "Yah, but that wouldn't be good."
That and every variation of that :(
I've actually been so mad that I wanted to quit.
Like that's how much I keep getting cut off,
as if I don't even need to be there.
I've felt like that at 2 consecutive meetings,
so you can only imagine.
*sigh*
COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN

Capital M-E .
I think that's going to be the signature of my blog.
I'd almost title it,
but who can change Poster Of A Girl.

OH LOOK WHAT JUST CAME ON MY IPOD.

'TILL I TAKE ONE OF THEM HOME
CUZ I KNOW HOW IT FEELS
FILLING IN THE BLANKS
LOOKING ON THE BRIGHTSIDE, WHEN THERE IS NO BRIGHT SIDE...

I'll Keep You My Dirty Little ......

Now you might think I'm blogging to you,

and I am,

But you're not the only one.

That's right folks.

Don't worry though.

I sincerely won't tell a soul.

Just the whole world.

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Update: Moustafa PROCRASTINATED doing his tests :( But he's going tmr.

Hope, Pray & Love friends. That's all I asked and that's all you gave.

In fact, I never asked.

♥

Update

Moustafa had to stay longer because they felt the need to monitor his vitals .
However he got to come home today ;
But he has to go back tomorrow to do a Stress Test,
and possibly an Angiogram.
Look it up. I'm too tired to explain.
But yeah basically he thinks he had a mini-heart-attack (?questionable?)
same symptoms of what GIVES you one anway.
And now he seems.
Sad.
It almost feels as if he's going into a depression. Again.
Like he's on the verge of slipping..
And I am afraid more than anything that he will.
That was just.
Not right.
To see Moustafa, of ALL people in the world,
not be able to see the sun.
not be able to smile.
crack a joke. dance a little.
Be....
himself.

i'm GOING UNDER
DROWNING YOU
i'm falling forever...
I've got break through
i'm

You Can Take Take Take The Kid From The Summer

Moustafa has to stay in the hospital till at least Monday now.
This might be somewhat more serious than he plays it off
DENIAL is my new best friend.
Ignorance has been cut.

:(

I JUST REALIZED

Today is fucking Friday the 13th,
and today my dad goes to the hospital.
Not a case of accute severity,
but he has minor blockage in his ateries,
which caused a lack of oxygen to flow to his heart,
which made it work extra hard to pump oxygenated blood around his big man body,
which caused him to have some quite uncomfortable chest pains,
which caused me to panic because before unaware of his exact condition,
i only had knowledge that his father passed away at 52 from congenital heart disease,
genetic.

I dunno. Just reading Leah's blog I totally forgot that it was "freyedai.thu.thr.t33nth."
I don't really believe in like superstition-ish things like that PER SAY,
but it's just interesting how that happened TOday.
Funny how things work huh.

Thank all that is good and holy that it wasn't VERY serious.
And good it has been caught NOW.
Because it can be prevented.

Unfortunately.
My dad doesn't take ANYTHING about anything that has to do with himself,
myself,
and my mother seriously when it comes to medical issues.
Strange, as he is an effing FAMILY doctor.
It just screams dramatic irony to me! Hai English 30 kids :)
But yeah. I dunno man,. Like.
For so many things other than this,
I stress and strain for him to take it seriously,
until my stomach yearns for relief,
my heart burns to stop
my throat yells ENOUGH!
my eyes plead, no more.

Brother (Watching)
Life is rough.
rough rough rough

Not mine though,
E
V
E
R
Y
O
N
E
'
S
.

And I understand that now.
Everyone's.
I always have,
but always tried to justify our way vs. those in less developed countries.
OH AREN'T YOU RIGHTEOUS.
I wish I could be.
Get involved.
I have been desiring too lately.
So why don't you?
Lazy? Apathetic? Scared? Putting it off?
Excuse?
Maybe.
Man.
I'm tired
Goodnight bloggers <3
+
+
+
+
Remember that if you feel like you have no one,
you will always have me.
(if that counts for anything at all)

LORD

What did I just say ..
TO BAD I HAVE TO BE A DOCTOR?
I just complained...
about getting an education...
for free...
for an amazing life...
a chance to earn a very satisfying living...
People elsewhere,
EVERYWHERE
would GIVE ANYTHING to have what I have a chance at.
What.
Did.
I.
Just.
Say.
But no, I will not erase that blog,
or that line.
Just so you know the Real Isha SHADY.
There is a point, "be what YOU want to be".
But where does that point draw to the line
of beinf thankful and accepting what is so easily provided for you.
If only I could give that kind of an oppurtunity to someone who deserved it
I honestly truly wish I could give it to someone.
I want to donate 78/79th's of everything I own
Omg
I like the words
personality
complex
I just feel it is very applicable
and I feel smart when I says it.

Baby I'm Just Soggy

from the chemo ...

"when you blow something out of proportion, you understand it a lot easier."
Well.
My experience like that isn't SIMILAR..
I just like that quote .
An orginal JDan.
For me, it's like
when I BLOW something out of proportion,
truly imagine, make myself utterly believe that it's going to be SO TERRIBLE,
it's merely a tiny obstacle.
Not ever as bad as I made it seem.
Now sometimes I have to psychollogically trick myself into thinking it's going to be hell.
And like backwardsinsideoutupsidedownridesideupreverseforwardpauseplayREWINDfastforwardtothegoodpart psycho analyze it.
ohkay hi sorry.
a 100% overexagguration.
I hate people who don't recognize that what they are saying is an overexxaguration and DONT admit it.
You're not cool :S
ANYWHO
much off topic
but yah.
But ever since I noticed this trend, I have tried to abuse it.
Do it on purpose
as an excuse to make something seem easier
OH THE PERSONALITY COMPLEX IS JUST SCREAMING!
ilovepsychology :(
too bad I HAVVE TO BE A DOCTOR.
Ah fack
I need to sort this out..............................................
Selfish huh ?
CAPITAL M-E.

No Sympathy.

Livingstone you are becoming a writer, right ?
Did you even READ you're last blog ?
I can't even begin to comprehend what kind of a brain you have for you to have written that.
Like what was your inspiration
to take your confusion to a level like THAT.
It was just unexplainably AMAZING!
I don't even understand it.
I have to take a 3rd read now.
bye.

Can't Stop

Thinking about tattoos and it SUCKS.

Just calm down and don't think about it!

I have a WHOLE semester to conquer first and then ONLY then will I be able to start thinking about which one I will get first.

However I would actually marry the boy who got this tatt

just so I could look at it EVERYDAY.

I WANT IT.

(Him)

CAN'T BE TO careful ANYMORE

WHEN ALL THAT IS WAITING FOR YOU
WON'T COME ANY CLOSER,
YOU'VE GOT TO REACH A LITTLE
MORE.

Uh
If you think you have it bad...
thinkagainmyfriend!
Another example has been proven to me.
To the person who shared something personal with me today,
I have an incredible amount of respect for. And thank you for trusting me =].
& I realize just how much I take my parents for granted.
& I hope that we will become closer as the days role on.
& we will

:)
Cheers to new-ish friends.

Okay

Desperate times call for desperate measures.
Once the measure has been made, you probabbly regret it.
But this new found regret teaches you that you did not need to be in the former state you were in
in the first place.
Life is good.
Realize what you have.
Realize what happened. to you was wrong,
and you don't NEED some.thing like that in your life.
Even though you loved (it_) SO MUCH,
and you still want to love ( it), because they were your form of heroine/
But you are slightly stronger than this
and you can hold on to the new way of your well being.
You're so close to slipping,.
and you almost do because of that desperate measure
and the vicious cycle just draws you back.
But it's the best thing for you.
Move on and accept what has happened.

Hey you. Congratulations on your decision.
You are going to be whatever you want to be, and fuckin SUCCEED.
And I will be there right behind you :)
Imma have to get me some WINTER ASS TIRES to drive all the way to Peace fuckin River !
But it'll be WORTH IT.
:) I love you!

Just B/C I'm Losing

Doesn't mean I'm LOST.

Chris Martin you are somewhat correct.
I didn't lose anything, in fact, I won...
but I do feel a little lost.
I literally slept this weekend away.
Not in the good way either.
I mean, it was never my intention to brag..
Ugh. I don't know why I did that.
I feel disgusting.
Saturday: I woke up at around 8:30 or 9ish. did the hw. ate.
Went back to sleep at 1round 12.
Woke up at around 6.
Felt shitty for the rest of the evening,
went to sleep at 10:30.
Then did it ALL OVER AGAIN
on Sunday/
I actually feel like crap.
What's wrong?
The greatest thing just happened and I don
t feel enthused.
Maybe it's BECAUSE of what I did this weekend.
I always sleep like that when I am subconciously sad because I have nothing else better to do.
Sleep just take sit all away
Then throws it back at you for the next hours your'e awake.
Ah fuck
GET GET GET GET GET OVER IT.

Superstition

has nothing to do with this blog.
It's just stuck in my head right now.
Stevie Stevie Wonder.
I wonder.
Right now I feel really incompetent.
Like I can't do anything to please anyone.
You people at home.
I come home late.
Much later than you would have preferred,
so then you say no to going to another friend's b-day dinner today.
So I accept this and move along.
Admittedly, a little upset but no matter,
I defyed you, so you punished me, I move on.
Then 10 minutes later you say you're very angry, I'm an indecent, disrespectful person,
but I.. can go...
I'm not. But like.
I just don't understand.
Like I don't want to just do whatever the FUCK I want.
I don't deserve anything, like you said, and you're right.
It's up too you.
It's. Not.
You're the adults here.
I just don't understand
& lately my personality complex has been bothering me.
But only when being with two of my best friends, which is odd.
3rd wheel, even when you say you're not!.
I feel like it.
The whole one person for you thing is a load of bullllllshit.
But I can't seem to let it go for this past little while.
I also feel REALLY fuckin' incompetent because I have literally done absolutely nothing for GradCouncil.
I don't even think they need me like what am I here for ?
I have lost the purpose of my life this weekend my friends.
A mood swing, I know.
Hope i get back to where I was
or don't.
How do you feel ?

What We're All About

california...
California..
HERE WE COMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE


Well actually here YOU come.
Have a good trip B. Fly safe. :)
UH okay.
So I'm like pretty fucking happy with how the audition went down.
That was the bets we;ve ever done it.
And like fuckin Dan Jeff saved the day man.
He literally drummed with us the DAY BEFORE.
Kieran didnt even guit with us the day before and YOU DID FANTASTIC.
Fuck am I proud of you :)
You never needed practise in th first place though.
Okay
totally forgot what i was going to say
i left for like 20 mins to get megans bday present.


I'magenieinabottlebaby
Yougottarubmetherightwayhoney

How We SURViVE

is what makes us who were are.

Guess what. I am confronting you now.
You got what you wished for, so here it is.
What
the
fuck
is
up
with
you
?
Do you not understand that you have a conglomeration of friends sitting around you just WAITING to help you ? No one would make fun of you. No one will judge you. No one will spread your secrets.
We are here to help you.
If not to everyone, pick one person.
Any single person you want, and tell them what's going on.
Just because you see ONE way out, does not mean that is the only way out.
Get outside of your own head, and get a different perspective.
It's rare when 2 people see a situation the same way --
This means that other opions will MOST likely help you.
OR give you another idea on how to fix whatever the fuck is going on.
But like honestly, jokes aside
the longer you hold it in, the faster it's going to kill you,
and the rate at which it kills you will become more agonizing.
Don't be afraid of whomever you tell that they are going to think things of you.
Every single person here has a problem,
Whether you know of it or not.
Everyone might deal with it in different ways,
but you have CLEARLY expressed that you need help.
You wouldn't have blogged about it otherwise because even though this blog is public,.
it does display what your most inner thoughts are to some extent.
Don't do this to yourself anymore. You know you don't deserve this feeling ;
The quickening pulse. The sinking heart. Tears in the corners of your eyes, bombs just ticking to detonate. The scream that's sitting in your chest that you just want to fucking ROAR in the middle of class?
Stop doing this.
Tell someone.
Tell Oreo for fucksakes.
Just
TELL
SOMEONE
However, in saying this you KNOW that we will not pry into your life.
We will not ask. We will not beg. We will not nose or fuck around.
When you are ready, then proceed to do so.
Don't put it off. Do not procrastinate.
You are procrasting because you are scared of what will happen and YOU KNOW IT.
You've said this repeatedley to me and who know's whom else, so I know.
I know exactly what you're doing and you have to stop!
GET ON WITH YOUR LIFE
Listen. Fuck. I am starting to say the same things over and over here,
but just know that we love you
We don't want to see you hurting,
or even know that that is the fact of the matter.
and we will help you when you need it.
That will never change.
Just please.
Tell someone.
I love you so much ....

(We + I are interchangeable;
get creative.)

Rough Hands

And that's 2 days till the audition,
and I'm alright with that.
What else?..
I left ALL my shit in Postle's room :(
I hope it's still there in the morning...
Grad council is nothing,,,
Chem is hard...
Physics is deep
Social is blah
English is pulling Hamlet essays out of my ass at the last second
Jessica Stewart is love :)
Mckenna Courtepatte is really cool if she still reads this
Sara Nyitrai has been sick and I have NEVER SEEN HER in my fucking gr/ 12 life and it sucks
because signs like these tell me she might be one of the people whom I ACTUALLY want to stay in close contact with but will have a REALLY hard time because well. This happens :(
Ilu sara :(
Larrie :)
Dorothy :)
Blair :)
Kyle :)
Elle s'appelle :)
ANYA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You're special
ALYSSA <333333333333333333333333
ksteer =D omg.

wow this is really gay
i apologize

Stadium ♥

Dopo, I am so happy for yew =]
Many more sneaky but not so sneaky times to come.
It was fantastic. FantaSIES.
Combat baby was just magnificent.
That's what did it for me.

Okay.
So I was very angry.
I said some things about you.
I am sorry.
I never think before I speak.
It always bites me in the ass.
But I deserve it because I open my big mouth.
You I always tell me myself I won't do it anymore.
And not just this, like lots os things.
Those habits that you just CANT NOT DO.
Like you'll conciously not do them for a while, but 2 weeks later it'll slip without you even knowing it
and then it leeaves you in the same position of, "I won't do it anymore. I promise."
I haven't promised anything to anyone in a long time.
That's for the better.
I'd just let you down.
But you know what.
That was a great way to spend Halloween,
it turned out a lot better than I was feeling this morning about it.
Obviously.
A good way to start November.
Here's to a good month guys.
Try and make it one.

Don't count on me
To let you know when
Don't count on me
I'll do it again
Don't count on me
It's the point you're missin
Don't count on me
CUZ IM NOT LISTENIN