I JUST REALIZED

Today is fucking Friday the 13th,
and today my dad goes to the hospital.
Not a case of accute severity,
but he has minor blockage in his ateries,
which caused a lack of oxygen to flow to his heart,
which made it work extra hard to pump oxygenated blood around his big man body,
which caused him to have some quite uncomfortable chest pains,
which caused me to panic because before unaware of his exact condition,
i only had knowledge that his father passed away at 52 from congenital heart disease,
genetic.

I dunno. Just reading Leah's blog I totally forgot that it was "freyedai.thu.thr.t33nth."
I don't really believe in like superstition-ish things like that PER SAY,
but it's just interesting how that happened TOday.
Funny how things work huh.

Thank all that is good and holy that it wasn't VERY serious.
And good it has been caught NOW.
Because it can be prevented.

Unfortunately.
My dad doesn't take ANYTHING about anything that has to do with himself,
myself,
and my mother seriously when it comes to medical issues.
Strange, as he is an effing FAMILY doctor.
It just screams dramatic irony to me! Hai English 30 kids :)
But yeah. I dunno man,. Like.
For so many things other than this,
I stress and strain for him to take it seriously,
until my stomach yearns for relief,
my heart burns to stop
my throat yells ENOUGH!
my eyes plead, no more.

Brother (Watching)
Life is rough.
rough rough rough

Not mine though,
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And I understand that now.
Everyone's.
I always have,
but always tried to justify our way vs. those in less developed countries.
OH AREN'T YOU RIGHTEOUS.
I wish I could be.
Get involved.
I have been desiring too lately.
So why don't you?
Lazy? Apathetic? Scared? Putting it off?
Excuse?
Maybe.
Man.
I'm tired
Goodnight bloggers <3
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Remember that if you feel like you have no one,
you will always have me.
(if that counts for anything at all)