Eff MY Life .

Me and my cousin Amanda decided to watch Milk today .
BIG FUCKING MISTAKE .
Moustafa is soooo mad at me you guys =(
I opened my BIG FUCKING UGLY MOUTH and said my real opinion of gay ,
when he said , " They used to arrest people for being gay ? That's a good policy."
And this is when Isha accidentally spontaneously combusts into political opinion, how it's not right etc.
Now apparently I'm a Sinner , a Lover , and a Drunk (Alexisonfire) for thinking that it's not wrong to be gay .
That my cousin is influencing me in devilish ways ...
Like he HATESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS me right now .
I was way more upset an hour ago but now I'm just too tired
Their closed mindedness is UNREAL .
That's all I have to say for now
I hope that your call wasn't urgent ... I feel sad
Bai

Untitled

I really wish I had an interesting concept to talk about ,
something to intrigue your minds ,
stimulate your senses ,
make you think about your well-being .
But alas I don't, I'm just a plain Jane .
In fact I feel very plain right now , in looks . Nothing spectacular , nothing eye catching .
Just there . Being .

Do you really think it's wise
to try to push the sun back down before it rises?
I know you're used to winning
When are you going to get to choose the prizes?

Oh, ho, ho
Isha

RealEyesRealizeRealLies

I had an off day. Getting worse .
I really need to start doing my hair again
I just don't really have any inpiration to get up earlier to make the extra effort
Got no one to impress , but that's bad attitude cuz someone WILL come along and I'll be looooking like a slob on that particular day
I'm in the March Slump right now guys .
It's partially the weather that is making me sad. I jsut want the cold to go away now
I'm always sad when I'm sick
Now I'm just sad
Ugh I dunno I feel like I'm sick of something , or that I need one more thing or that something left or somethings missing sometihngs broke off floated away drifted into space found it's own place.
Sometimes I wish I could just turn it off , oh but I can . Sleep
But then I just sleep sadly with a frown on my dreams.
I wanna delete all things computer then keep them at the same time .
Okay reading back I think I am just a big sore whiny bitchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I just want school to be over. Summer ... ? Job ... ? Other ...? I MISS SOCCER ACAD
As I said
MARCH SLUMP !
Oh ya and the sickest centipede came sltihering out of my pantry , so now I'm REALLY VERY SAD because i'm too scared to eat out of there tonight .
i screamed and almost puked , god if you saw this thing .
pce

FUCK

So sick so sick of being tired and oh so tired of being sick

Ahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
I
am
tired
I can hardly see this computer screen
lol
Dread dmream dream

I Pee'd On My Driveway

No seriously .

LOL @ ISHA :
So as you may or may not know , I LOVE BEVERAGES .
Juice, coffee, milk, water , slushies, pop, tea etc - you name it ! I'll drink it my the Litre when I'm thirsty .
Yeah so anyways I don't really go to the bathroom very much , usually I'm good at holding it till I get homez .
Yeah not so much anymore , I learned my lesson ;
Chugged a small water bottle then a large water bottle at approximately 5 p.m. this afternoon ,
And then an iced latte at Cargo & James , about 8:30 p.m. in the evening .
So everything's fine and dandy, drive Larrie home , yadda yadda .
Driving on my way to Ellie's house, she mentions she needs to do her business, I'm like "Yeah me too kinda..."
"Do you wanna pee at my house ?"
" NAHHH it's ALLLL guhd dear !!"
BAD MISTAKE.
So drive around the block, drop her off . That's when it began to get urgent.
But I was like it's okay it's okay, I'll make it . And I did , or so I thought.
Pull up into the driveway, hop out of the car, and AS SOON AS I HIT CONCRETE I was like OH FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKK
So not wanting to pee in my garage (disgusting) ,
I like sprint/3 m long jumped out of my garage, run around the big pillar in front of my house
and pee behind there . For like a minute. And a half .
LOLOLOLOL . Luckily NO ONE was around , and I'm PRETTY sure everyone's blinds were closed,
but you never know who could've seen .
LOLOL. Sorry .

I hope you enjoyed this eventful story. I blogged this to make you have a good laugh today, or whenever you read this, s[pecially K.Liv since you're having a rough time . Nobody should take this life TOO seriously , this is my personal reminder. We're only human .
Don't un-bestfriend me please. I'm really scared you'll all react badly to this and think I'm disgusting and greasy :( Lol
Reply ?

Lost !@

I'm starting to figure out that
If
I have nothing to blog then
I should not blog at all because
I'm thinking you wouldn't want to read boring shit like this
Isha

The Death Of Me

No worries , City & Color .
You guys .
I want to somehow be in Vancouver with a Taking Back Sunday ticket in hand on Saturday May 30, standing infront of The Commodore Ballroom , waiting to enter the venue in anticipation of seeing one of my favourite bands , chatting it up with some cute boys beside me who asked , are you here alone ? who also love set band .
Or
it being July 16 .... No . I almost don't want it to come , it'll pass too quickly . I must enjoy the time anticipating it to full extent.
Or
that bag from Lucky , yeah I really dream about it
Or
June 2nd to arrive , or June 5th , but that second isn't important .
Or
Job so I can get bass that I'll drool on , and possibly and classical but with my own $
Or
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you always
Can't always get what you want.

Isha

Down With The Sicknesss.

1. ipod exploded in my hands... literally . I hear this ka-chunka-chunk-chunk sound , then the menu WHEEL flys off , and the inside of the ipizzle in sparking in my face , HO SHIT i go , mother yells WATCH IT , then i storm back to Mac myself and get a new Smoky . Thank god it wasn't like i had smoky for several years cuz i would have been SOOOO SAD . But i'm just pretending it's still smoky so it's all guhd.
2 . I really need a good facial moisturizer. My chin is peeling off my face . Any recommendations ?
3. I finally got carrots and dip . YES .
4 . My phone has no UP down RIGHT SIDE left side or 9 button . I've lost 5 buttons in one day. I need a new phone .Poo :(
5 . WOW MY MOM JUST SAID : can't you record songs twice on a cd so I can listen to it twice ? I'M LIKE WHY DON'T YOU JUST PRESS THE <<>
6. I hate mornings so much now :( Poo. I don't really know what I want anymore . Whether it be him, wheelz , sun , bio , I just don't know . However I drew pictures today in Physics of stickmen pushing and pulling things so I had a good day .Park ruins Macbeth . Chem is okay but boRANG
7. K-Liv- , it'll pass . Everyone has problems with the fam . Hang in there kiddo =)
8. My name is Jonas , I'm carrying the Wind
9. Uhhhh I've run out of things to say
10 . We Need A Resolution
Isha .

She's So Sorry

I just haven't had any thoughts the past few days
Or maybe no nice ones
Not that I'm upset or anything . Everything is fine
I'm just so blank right now.
Apologies all round.

Gemini: You're not imagining it - someone is definitely looking at you. You sure caught their eye! .

Sure .
My skepticism is at approximately 6000% right now . Lol
It's me , yeah . I don't go out there and talk and get to know . Whatever . I give up for this school year again.
Jp is done to me . In a way , it could be a good thing cuz if I don't TRY so hard maybe I'll just naturally make friends and flow , .
That's how I want it to be . And if I catch special attention from someone then HooRAH. =]
Uh what else...
Trying to get the creative juices flowing here for you .
I've only been noticing how different every single one is from one another -
And now that I re-read it , it's naive , but then that is all I am .
Like one issue doesn't affect a person AT ALL , but to someone else it can make their whole world crash right before them .
The insecurity , that drowning feeling , just overwhelming them .
It's weird . I've just never thought about it as hard . Ran into it the other day in fact .
But regardless , take what life throws at you and throw it right back .
L
I
V
E
....

Nah nah Nah nahh

Hey Jude ....

OH , AND TINA'S LOSING FAITH IN WHAT SHE KNOWS

HATES HER MUSIC AND ALL OF HER CLOTHES
THINKS OF SURGERY AND A NEW NOSE
EVERY CALORIE'S A WAR
AND HOW SHE WISHES SHE WAS A DANCER
AND THAT SHE NEVER HEARD OF CANCER
SHE WISHES GOD WOULD GIVE HER SOME ANSWERS
AND MAKE HER FEEL BEAUTIFUL

I
REMEMBER FEELING LOW AND I
REMEMBER LOSING HOPE AND I
REMEMBER ALL THE FEELINGS AND THE DAY THEY

stopped.

HEY YOU

Have you felt like this before ?
You got style but ain't got soul ...
Are you happy now , are you happy ?
TONIGHT
Did punk rock get it right ?
Is there no future inside ?
Oh , is it different now , is it different ?
Come on , come on , come on .
WHERE ARE YOU ?
WHERE ARE YOU ?
Ah kickin' and screamin ' !
You're not listening .

HI , My Name Is

Who ?
Huh ?
CHika Chika Slim Shadyy.

Uh
Locked outside house for hour
Forgot my key
Least the weather was nice
Lone tomrrow
Reuinion on Sunday
Coo

In Other News

Sorry Dorothy I didn't mean too :) !
I just . I typed it then erased it was all .
And then Swing Life away came on so I lyric-ed it .
Look at this fb message I got :

Victoria Felicitas
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Today at 12:20am
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hey, i just have to say that, after what sharen has told me
about you (all good shit, don't worry), you are now one of my
favorite people. i thought you'd like to know.

Like.
LOL
? ! cool .
I wish Victoira Felicitas was a rally hot boy or something .
But then again that'd be really weird of him
But who I am kidding , at this rate of no boyism I'd take it .
HAHA

Hell or Glory ?
I don't want anything inbetween
Then came a baby boy with long eyelashes
And said , "You gotta show the world the thunder ."

What a weird Fall Out Boy song . But Patty Stumps voice still killss <3
Isha

Downnnnnnn .

Nevermind
Too public

I'll show you mine
If you show me yours first
Let's compare scars , I'll tell ya whose is worse .

Our Lady Peace

has become one of the other favourite B's in my life.
3 line blogs have become habit yet I want to blog more but won't.
Until I need too .

Isha

Yeah No .

She's right -
If time takes us there , then so be it .
If not , I'll always wonder .

=)

Sick Sick Sick

I just
don't know
any more .

Oh Life

is waiting,
FOR YOU
It's all messed up but we'll survive ...

Ode To Cucumbert

Oh Cue !
It's really been a long and wonderful ride with you .
3 and 1/2 years to be exact .
You've been soo good to me Cukes , how can I ever thank you enough ?
All the times you saved me from the disgusting realm of public transportation ,
(also known as taking the bus home)
Oh how I could just drown in your glory as you spilled my favourite tunes .
Sitting in my room for hours at a time , you and I , just getting to know each other's vibes, the way we work .
You survived losing your << button and the hold button ; that's like losing an eye and a limb huh kiddo .
How brave you were to keep running strong for me , for you didn't need those useless mechanisms !
In truth , I will miss you at times , I will .
Since you've been 100% recycled though , your greatness is going to be spread around for other people of the world .
You will be able to allow them - whether it be another spunky 16 yr. old girl who loves No Doubt, and really sexy 19 yr. indie whos adores Jack Johnson , or a 65 yr. old man who just wants to listen to some Frank Sinatra lullabies - to experience the incredible joy that is music .
The lust . The wonder . The inspiring . The creative .
I hope you live a good second life Cucumbert, wherever you go , and may you always sing beautifully from your heart .
You will always be loved .
Keep On Keeping On .

Love, Isha .

1-2-3-4

Tell me that you love me more .

SO .
I have too much to do .
Chem & Physics test tmr , gotta study soon .
I went grocery shopping by myself after seeing the doc's
- Oh by the way he out the itchy shit again :( but lower dosage cuz it worked soo well in getting rid of the other skin problem though consequently causing another . So be ready for me to screammmm .
But anyways I saw Phil :) yes Dorothy, Phil Jameson. with his mom lol ! I think he was embarassed cuz I wasn't with my mother or anything haha .
I GOT HONEY ELLIE PASTURIZED HONEY YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
And so much guhd food omgz . =D
I gotta go , But I'll leave you with the moment of the day .
OH BY THE WAY ARVIN SANG KILLING ME SOFTLY WITH HIS SONG WITH ME
It was soooooooooooo friggen funny . Like I didn't really sing I was just laughing .
It was a good guitar class today .
And I gotta work on Karma Police . MUST WIN SING BATTLE >:< =(
And bass batttle but I won't win .
ANYWAYS . Moment of the day .

Feist sings : 1-2-3-4-5-6-9 & 10 money can't buy you the love you had back then
Arvin says : THIS BITCH CAN'T COUNT

Isha

Hey , Is Anybody Home ?

Has anbody wasted tears on
[The] Loneliness that everyone becomes ?
OOooOoOoo

I could blog so much today ,
And nothing all .
I'm SOOOOO tempted to make a list right now but I can't .
I won't !
Or maybe I'll secretly make on to make me feel better .
Or maybe I won't give in . We'll see .
But just to clarify , this isn't a sad blog . :)

All I know is ,
actually .
I know nothing at all .

Temporary

So don't hurt me this time .

I'm really losing faith again .
I need to set things in motion , get my priorities straight .
I wish it were as easy and looking forward to this summer ,
but it's looking much more farther ahead that's much more important for now .
I need to decide on exactly what career I want to persue
(so EKay can you please walk me through what you got told by the counsellor) (if you want to)
If that photojournalism class is realistic , or a waste of time
If I can really move out with you ............
There's 22 people on facebook . That's disgusting . Go out to eat !
Of course I'm no help
I lied yet again --> I still need to read all of Kieran's blogs .
Oh , that sinking feeling , go away !
P.s.
I secretly want to have a fling with a gorgeous boy in B.C. on the road trip ...
But it'll probably never happen .
Guess it's not so secret anymore.

OH
And Taking Back Sunday is coming again EEYAYYYYYYY
Needa find someone for that ;
Larrie inadvertently took my NoDoubt/Paramore/Bedouin offer , so now I'm like DOUBLE excited inside my stadium arcadium
AH
No , won't freak now.
I've been getting the , NOT WITH THAT ATTITUDE YOU WON'T
more than often , it seems I need an sttitude change as well , about everything .
I even told myself that for something(s) today ,.

Bye

LIAR

Liar
If we're keeping score ,
Then we're all choir boys at best -
Intrusive and Arrogance .