The Phrase That Pays

Hold
your
Head
High
Heavy
Hearts
.
(L)uv (L)uv Isha
<3

Perfect .

I'm waisting this blog title so badly .
I'm exhausted /
I don't know what I'm doing for New Years ...
It's going to be like always , nothing , just go to bed at 10 .
Lol . Except I'm not laughing .
A lot to do
Pce

No Song Title Here

Move Move SHAKE SHAKE now drop .
Eep ! I actually do love dancing --> shaking my ass and poppin' ma shoulda's backk .
LOL . I made VHERY guhd friends with a leb guy at the dance party ... for like 10 seconds of course , I'm no slut ! You trust me right Kyle ? Hehe <33 ilu .But it was weird, he like grabbed me by the waist and started grinding from behind =O I went with it but then after 10 I was like WAIT A MINUTE !!!!! Must stay faithful to my blondie :) So I turned around and waved a "Thanks" , and he's like "No no , THANK YOU ." . Hahahahahaha . My first clubbinn' expo . Oh Isha , you're pathetic .
I hope you all get a good laugh , that's all I'm trying to do . Lighten your day . Or night , whenevr your reading this.
Michelle Branch is doing so for me right now , yay .
So . I . am tired !
There are things I want to do , but again I am NOT blogging them .
That turns into a list , and stays as a list forever .
This year ,
Live .
And that is not a New Year's Resolution either .
I'm not making any of those . I think I said that before , but I'm putting my foot down .

you give me Something To Sleep To , at niight . (L)
Luv Luv Isha . Almost wrote Osha there for a second . ;)

K-K-K-KAOS

WELL WOULD YA LOOK AT THAT .
So . My parents of course missed their flight to Edmonton .
They're stuck in Minneapolis for the night , and are going to catch a plane at 11 am tomorrow I suppose .
Meanwhile , guess who has driver's training at 9 in the morning , has to feed the cat , shave , do my hair for an hour and then go to fucking Empire for a dance party ?
All the while , I just spent 1 hour yelling at the top of my lungs so my dear old grandfather could hear that I required a ride tomorrow morning .
Oh , I offered to take the bus -- I should not have called to inform the g rents that my parents would not be back tonight , oh , I should not have . But alas , I did , because my mom would have called anyways and I would have had to deal with that later on in the night .

*******

Well, I just sorted it out . They were going to send a brown lady that i do not know , to come here a 8 in thr morning , but I convinced them that it is a close ride and they only need to come at 8:30 .

And then I called my mommy and daddy and had a good cry . I had a bit of a breakdown down there after screaming to my elders , in effort to make them understand the simple , simple task at hand :(

This turned into something that was completely avoidable, yet , it happend .

Everything is techinically solved, I'm going to driver's training , bussing back , whatevs .

I must warn you Ellie , I'll be in a sour mood tomorrow , don't take it personally . Your blog by the way , I don't get it . I'm to shallow for you =) And vice vice versa , you're too deep ;) .

Sorry for not answering the txts Ethan , I'm having a hell of an evening .

Hi Dorothy =] I lavv yew <3

Kyle , whatsup ? I haven't talked to you for days =(

I hope your getting the jist of my week from my blogs lol , so you are in the know .

I think that covers kids who read my blog ... Or at least those that I know of ...

Luv Luv Isha .

OH SHIT I STILL HAVE TO FEED MURPHY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tipsy

Still not a fan of alcohol .
I hope I don't bring you party kids down ;)
I found an un-used cigar , I think it'll make good for some artistic (HAHA.CUP.CAYKE) shots =)
Except I JUST BROKE IT OOPS . Oh well nothing a little tape won't fix .
I'm really sad about my locket. Can we go into Urb and demand another one ? Except you're gonna have to do it , I'm to shy .
I have so many things to do , but I refuse to blog about them . I'm just going to do them as they come . For me , I feel better about it . No more making lists , bullets , whatever . It doesn't happen when I do it like that.
LOL i was considering going out by myself to the mall , since you weren't answering , but you JUST WOKE UP!?! You slob . No jks <333333333333333333333333 We did have a late night , so late that it was early morning . Fucking 7 a.m. I don't think I'll be able to do that again lol .
Actually it messed with my body clock . I had to force myself to sleep at 1 and I wasn't tired at all haha .
Oh well . Life is good :) Billy Talent is making me very happy right now . That's what we're listening to in the car today .
And Dorothy , I PROMISE today is the last day I'm driving illegally . I have to fill up the car lol . And We're squeezing in a trip to the mall . Then it's goodbye to my week of freedom .
But don't worry , I'm going to be done driver's training by Jan 28 , then that means ....
ISHA LICENSED BY FEB '09 ??!??!?!
I almost wrote 08 . How sad :(

--Well thank you Ethan , I don't know if it's categorized as an accomplishment , but it was certainly a step outside of my box =] I like being mentioned in other people's blogs . It makes me feel special . Haha .

Speak Up .
Luv Luv Isha .

Untitled

So a lot of deception continues through this week ;

I've been driving my mom's car all around town illegally -- I only have my learner's . =P

It's going pretty good , no accidents , no parts breaking ... uh-oh , better knock on wood ***

Ellie is gracefully snoring away as I type . The pit-pattering sound of the keyboard on her gorgeous Mac Book must me lulling her to sleep some more . What a sleepy goose . We only stayed up 'till 4 this time .

I can't imagine you over anyone else . You'll read this when you wake up , hopefully , and I hope it makes you smile . I'm so tempted to take a picture of you sleeping , it's quite a funny sight , but I have no chord for my camera so there is no point if I cannot upload it ;)

Soulful talks at 3 in the morning , after playing a rousing  2 hour game of Mr. Fancy Pants 'till 2 ? What more could I ask for in a best friend .

LOL , we're big losers . No wonder the wrong boys ask you out and none ask me at all . Oh dear .

Continuing , last night I understood what you said for my predicaments, and I'm sincerely going to try my best to listen to it , I swear . I'm just going to live , and be the best I can be . That's all thee is to it . And fli*t more, yuck ;) I'll do my best.  I have only begun to realize what a bad relationship can do to one , and am becoming thankful , that maybe it was a good thing no one has .... wanted that with me yet . Though , you are missing out . Only EK knows what kind of love I would give . Someone of the opposite sex , please discover =]

I'm waiting .

+OtherwiseHappy+ , and oh yeah , it's Christmas Eve . Well , sort of . Would.ya.look.at.that.

Luv Luv Isha .

Yule Blog

Feliz Navidad

Joyeux Noël

愉快的聖誕節

Fröhliches Weihnachten

Buon Natale

С Рождеством Христовым

Vrolijke Kerstmis

Merry Christmas.

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Oh my blog titles are so goddamn clever .

I just wanted to say Happy Holidays to all of you

I hope you have a good Christmas / Hanukkah / Kwanza or whatever else you celebrate

Make good choices , be good people .

As for me , alone this holiday , I've decided not to make New Year's Resolutions because whenever I do , they never get done . I just want to live , have a good year , do good things .... amazing things ....

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The one and only thing I want , I'm NEVER going to get . Ever . Saying "You WILL m**t so*e*n*" , no , I actually don't think I will . You don't know how much I want you to prove me wrong . I have no faith for that subject anymore, the only thing I'm good at is not attracting anybody . "I'm the champion of being alone ." AFS was right :( This is turning into a sad blog . I hope I didn't ruin everything .

Being by yourself for mutiple days can induce lethal thoughts .

Need human company now ...

Luv Luv Isha .

So So So Scandolous .

Do you guys remember that song ?
I know Dorothy hated it lol =P
BUT ANYWAYS.
Drinking . Stealing . Bacon ? :0
I was on a role , as MAS quoted . (Lol! I'm a huge dork)
So quite a weekend of deception for me :
--The parents go away for one week on a cruise of a lyfe time , leaving me here to fend for myself . But it was partially my choice not to go because I don't want to be stuck on a big ass boat with my parents and Jane and Mohsen (Uncle , and Aunt from HELL) , alone .
-- I decide to throw a hugee party :) !!!! Except it wasn't huge , but it was bigger then I thought .
--Hiding ALL the breakables in my house as to avoid incidents with drunk teenagers ? Genius Isha , I applaud you .
--Pool table , extremely loud techno and 90's rap music , drink after kid after kid after drink through my door , good --no , GREAT friends --, drunk assholes , Larrie 's a cutie , endless clean up and epic search for alcohol bottles //caps , making out in my bathroom + basement (and who knows WHAT else), Wyatt and Kevin naked in bed , Kevin slipping 2 TIMES !! , bleeding over my pool stick , chocolate sauce ALL OVEr Arvin's face <3 , Megan's amazing , Ellie's my best , oh god what else .
*We went to bed at 6 a.m. this morning . Fun .
--I tasted just about everything that was at that party . JUST A TASTE Kyle , literally sips here and there, but I stopped really really early , I swear . That shit tastes like fuck + ass + nail polish remover combined . I don't know how you kids can down that stuff lol :) . Even Bailey's let me down ! Ellie what am I going to do when we go to clubs and dance the night away ?!?Guess I'll just mix mix mix . It all tastes AWFUL to me . But that's because I know I am not a drinker , nor will ever be one . Coke & GingerAle are all I need to have a good time , and if you think it's lame , then you're not a real friend anyways . But I'm pretty sure everyone respects my decision not to drink , I don't think anyone cares . I have faith in my friends. Test that out .
-- I stole my mom's BMW to go to Safeway to get ketchup and syrup . Yes , me driving , Megan in the passenger's, two un-licensed teenagers on the rode in a fucking BMW X5 . Oh , that was pretty bad ass :) It felt good .
-- I ate Bacon ! Second thing I did that was against my "religion". I don't know if it's so much a religion , certainly not as proper and to the point as Moustafa sees it .... It was just from a young age I did not eat pork , and I never drank . I just grew up like that is all .
*We had the most amazing breakfast (at 1 in the afternoon) . Maple Sausage + Bacon , pancakes , smiley's , scrambled eggs, ,chocolate milk and coffee, and everything type of juice you could ever imagine . Yum .
It's ironic how I went from having 30 people in my house , to 10 , to 6 , to 0 in approximately 8 hours . I feel supremely lonely . I hope you guys reply to this blog . I'm actually very lonely and want to talk to you .
I have so much cleaning up to do still , and I'm only running on 3 (AT MOST) hours of sleep . This sucks .
Oh yeah and we all thought Jessica C was going to die lol .
Pictures soon , peace .

Luv Luv Isha.

Ow

Well , they're gone .
My heart aches a little bit .
I'm going to miss them , hard.
Thrilla , my throat and nose hurt .
Toniight ?
We'll see .
Luv
Luv
Isha
.

Ohhhh.

Round here we ridin' slow.

SO MUCH TO DO TOMORROW
Oh no !!!!
And karma , you're a lovely lady.
I'm not mad that I got a cold before Thunderheist ;
That's what I get for throwing a shin - dig the day my parents leave me .
I deserve it , it's allll good . We're even .
I love Karma . I really do .
M.I.A. Democracyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Luv Luv Isha .

Rep Your Clique

I have a lot of work to do .
Shit .
How am I going to fool mother dearest into thinking I've done the "touch-ups" she wants , without really doing them ...
Hmm.... This should take some mastermind and trickery ...
Or I could just do them , but no . I don't want to.
Hpmh . Now it's too late I'm tired :(
Boy can I waste a day away !
Fuck

CUZ ALL WE GET IS
DEAD DISCO
DEAD PHUNK
DEAD ROCK 'N' ROLL
REMODEL
EVERYTHING
WE SPEND TIME
LALALALALALaLalalalala .

Luv Luv Isha .

Constant Knot

--City And Colour

It's funny how life works isn't ?
:) one day
:( the next
Hay , that's no way to live . Smarten up !
Go find the ones you love, and stick with 'em .
Be open to everything and everyone . Who are we to judge anyone , really .
Be thankful for what you already have , and strive to be the best .

Thriller Niiight .
Yeah , it's Micheal Jackson kinda night .

Luv Luv Isha .

Pushin' Me Away

Every last word , every single thing you say .

You know . I'm really getting sick of you putting your grubby little hand on everything I touch .
You have to shove your nose into every aspect of my life, every fucking thing I do .
I can never have something to myself , something that I've done completely on my own .
She's barging in on my fucking room now . You don't understand . This is my (our) project.
I don't need you constantly nagging how the line isn't completely straight on the mother fucking tree , and now she's screwing around with my outlets and light switch -- AND VENT , she just ripped them ALL off the fucking wall and omg FUCK ////////////////////////////////////
If you need to feel needed somewhere, go help out in Moustafa's clinic . Try and make yourself useful where you're actually needed for once .
I'm sick of you COMPLETELY re-arranging all my stuff , and I literally mean ALL MY STUFF , my bathroom , my room , my closet , everything =(
You're creating unessecary work and it's a huge nusance to me .
Let me re-phrase that : You are a huge nusance to me . Ay fack . What am I going to do ...
I just have to keep putting all my fucking stuff back in it's place every single day for the rest of my life ? Niice .
Oh Karma ? I have a favor to ask.
KICK THE FUCK IN WITH A SUPER BOY ALREADY !!
I can't take much more of this . LOL , as you can clearly see.
Hai Ellie , the title and quote fit perfectly to my little situation huh ?
It's a Jonas Brother's song . Funny how that works isn't it ;) ?

Luv Luv Isha

Heavy Metal

Silent Night .
Not much to say , pretty exhausted from paintin' paintin' .
It's coming along rather nicely !
Thunderheist , oh god . This should be interesting .
Ecstacy , you make my lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .
"You make the best of me."
God .
I
just
am
blank
peace

Luv Luv Isha

Remembering Sunday

You know , I always thought I was over imagining how much of a cold hearted - no, I should say NO HEARTED - bitch you were , but in all actuality it is completely and utterly true . Unacceptable behaviour coming from a mother . You seem more like the wicked, evil step-mother to me , even though I would still take several bullets for you any time . Hit me , I'd never hit you back . Call me obscene names to assert power ? I would never say my true feelings to your face , only to keep your feelings alive . Because trust me I can be a menace with words when it comes to you ... You don't know how to act anymore , and it has become really childish to me . I can handle it , the only reason being is that you sound so . stupid to me, a lot of your harshness and whip bearing doesn't even make sense at times . Afterall , she just forbade me from talking to her ever again , since every comment that comes out of my mouth is back talking because I am SO RUDE to her , and she is the innocent lamb who has done nothing at all !
Friends , am I the type to be mean to someone , let alone my fucking birth mother , for no reason ?
I only speak out if it is provoked, and TRUST ME , it's provoked.
I am ashamed that I continue to get hurt by some of the untrue things she says . It is not easy being the bigger person , but I am getting better at it :)
Karma , Karma , Karma . Something great will come out of this .
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Sorry for the rant friends ! On with this week !
'Tis been full of Isha talking to a pleathora of extremely cute boys ! Odd I found it , but who's complaining .
DK . LT . JM .
And then the treat of meeting the infamous Ethan Davidge ! It was a pleasure being in your company, as I had expected :)
Oh and I don't mean infamous as in the literal sense , just that I finally met you after all the cyberspace conversations we've had .
Foooooooooooooo , life is hard , but never give up .
Never Say Never , <3

Luv Luv Isha .

No , You're A Fat Scarf .

(Skeptics And True Believers )
I truly apologize for my behaviour this past Friday, Korchagina . And to Marisha & Larrie .
That was absolutely no way to act . I usually don't let her get to me , but she took it to a new low , and sometimes it's just fucking hard man !
She just says shiet over and over and over and over and over again , in the harshest tones , it's just such a terrible attitude to have , especially from a mother.
I don't believe what she says , either , so you don't have to worry about that sillyness/
Oh look, she's bantering to me now about painting my room , weee ! Bitch .
But , if you remember one of my past nexopia blogs :

Karma : Call your mum a crazy bitch , she gonna act like one !

None the less , fuck it . I need to liveeeeeeeeeeeee . Sorry Dorothy , that's why I left early . I just really needed to go home and chill by myself . I've slept off the childish behaviour , and am ready to begin again . =] No more non-sense . And oh hai , am I meeting E~Fan 2day ?

Luv Luv Isha

P.S. Can you tell me what LT really did again , with no over exagguarations ? I . Want to know .
He makes me ....

It's Taking Up Our Time We Can't

Go back we can't , go back at all .
Haha so reb was kind of a drag , I pumped it up too much .
2 HOT HOT (heat) teams , Sherwood Park SPARTANS & AB O'Leary Senior Boys *drool*
I sat in the middle of the O'Leary boys to get some sick shots of the dunk contest . :)
Opening Ceremonies wasn't as spectacular as it was last year .. Too bad .
Probably the best thing was capturing the really great shots of Nick S . for Jelena .
I actually managed to do it again . Genius ! That'll be the only Xmas presesnt I'm giving to anyone ...
Only you if you want one , and Feli if she wants one . Otherwise , I have no job = no money = no presents , sorry .
It doesn't matter too much though cuz no one gives anything anyways . It's harsh world .
Jks jks , presents aren't important . I don't really care this Christmas .
Afterall , my family is leaving me . Oh well . Huff , I'm tired . Today was long, and my arms hurt from photographing all day . I'm starting to get angry so I'm going to stop blogging .
Whatever , better luck next time . =]
The above picture is so Friday Night Lights . Look it up if you're confused , and YES I know that's a football movie , but still . The lighting . Incredible . The below picture ? The determination in our team.. Sports can be a beautiful thing . Go Rebels Go .

Luv Luv Isha

PHOTOGRAPHY @ REB ALL DAY TOMORROW

Yes , that's one of mine .
Now imagine what I can do with a hot . sweaty . basketball playing boy .
If I have to shoot girls though , I'm seriously walking out .
Lol . Except that I'm beyond dead serious .
Hopefully this goes really well :) I want it to be an amazing experience all around .
I want to talk about some other things , but I honestly do NOT have time today .
There's LT updates, major !
There's painting updates , huge .
Saturday is going to be the buisiest day in the history of the world ,
as is next Saturday , Thunderheist is ON . Don't fret Dorothy :) I'll only cancel if know one shows ,
but otherwise it is Saturday , December 20th , 2008 .
SIICK ! I hope you guys have a fantastic week . Cheers ;) Too bad Nick doesn't read this . He'd get a kick ouotta that one .
"YOU'RE NOT BRITISH ." I love my friends .

Luv Luv Isha .

Voulez-Vous Coucher Avec Moi , Ce Soir ?

JKS . I'm no whore .
Today was weird . I met & talked to . Boys . Today . TWO . BOYS .
That's plural friends , I KNOW ! Like wtf .
That NEVER happens . Not that I'm complaining though haha .
And you know what's even more bizarre -
They're 2 of the boys on my Top 10 Hottest @ JP .
(If you don't mind me saying EeK, there's no denying him ;) But my intentions of friendship with him are true , I would never decieve you <3 )
Like . Made friends with the forbidden JM finally , after months and months of friggen gossip , retarded tears , whisperwhisperomgomghe'ssohawt.
And then sure , at the end of semester , cute Social boy (DK) FINALLY holds a conversation with me alone .
It was cool we were def flirting . It was pretty sarcastic about how he was all done the crossword but it was blank , and I was like "Invisble ink huh ?" And he's all "Mmmmmhmmmmmm." Haha , and a few more words like that , no big :) He was def stumbling though at first , it was funny . Clearly cuz of my glowing beauty . JKS JKS JKS . I'm not cocky confident about myself like that, not even close ! . Whatever . Boyz .
But now I'm betraying LT . I miss you ! Come to math already , jeez . :(
Oh well . Life is still good since that car ride, minus mum haggering me 24 / 7 . But it's all good , I deal . It really doesn't phase me anymore , to be honest . I get it that much .

--The only thing that really phases me is this painting the goddamn room and thunderheist . This could be a huge failiure . And me bio DIPLOMA . And math&social finals and test tomorrow :( .

"'Cause I got your picture, I'm coming with you ,
Dear Maria Count Me In !
There's a story at the bottom of this bottle and I'm the pen ;
MAKE IT COUNT , WHEN , I'M THE ONE THAT'S SELLING YOU OUT ,
'Cause it feels like stealing hearts calling your name from the crowd - Whoa Oh oh . "

Luv Luv Isha .

Brother (Watching)

Hey !
I don't really have much to say , I'm kinda drowsy / sleepy , and it's snowing outside .
My head hurts a bit . Shad is my new favourite rapper . His shit is legit yo . =]
That's goin' in the Carr Beatzz playlist on my iPod ;) .
SHIT LOOK AT THIS FUCKING STUPID FACEBOOK HOROSCOPE I HATE HOROSCOPES MORE THAN EVER NOW .

Gemini : That person you'd like to become closer with will never know if you don't speak up. Get over your shyness and let them know you want to hang out..

Wow ... . .. .. .. Fuck .
You know who this is about Ellie . Fuck . I should really just not post this and hide it from you , cuz now you're gonna bug me to GO UP TO HIM TALK TO HIM ITS EASY DUMBASS .
No , it's really not :( Please don't for now kay ? Lol . Except I'm serious don't freak me out . You have the ability to do that, and you know it ! <33333333
Why can't I be like Liz or something , minus the negative that comes with that chica , just. The ability to talk to any boy she desires .
Maybe I should become ultra girly and slutty and flirty and like omg omg omg like totally ! Wow . This sucks . It's just gonna be yet another boy that I don't acheive , because I cannot be mature and get over some certain issues within . *SIGH* Oh Isha, when are you gonna learn ?
I hate you facebook horoscopes , you're WAY TO ACCURATE . Because friends , truthfully , more then 10 of the fb ones have been 100% completely the fuck accurate . Dead on , straight hit .
BOOM .

Luv Luv Isha

Franklin

NOT as in Franklin-NicNelsonBitch-Franklin, don't fret Elles . =] LOL
It's a Paramore song , about missing home .
I'm still fairly happy right now , and I love it .
Eek, you make me joyful girl . I like when we cuddle too =3 .
The room is actually being started , I am amazed . This is actually one thing in my life that is going to come true (for once) . This is going to be sick . =D
The party, codename THUNDERHEIST, will also be sick . Hopefully everyone can make it .
I wish it could be like Tessa's party . Like VERY MUCH .
It's a huge stretch that LT [(L)Haha!] would come though Ellie , I have to be completely honest with myself.
It'd be a Christmas miracle if it happened though , it sure would !
For your information Dorothy , I ALMOST may have a new crush on a new boy . ALMOST .
But like , I'm being very practical , and not setting myself up for another COMPLETE dissapointment .
It would be heaven if I had a second semester class with him since this semester the dumb bum sat on the OTHER side of the room for like 3 months =( , but I'm 99.9% sure I don't so.
TIME SHALL TELL !
I almost wanna tell Tessa & Megan . But can I really trust anyone these days ?
If it were a perfect world , they'd tell him and he'd be like "Omg she does?!? I like her tew ". And drift off from there .
But alas , it is not like that , it will never happen . I dunno how I'm gonna get in for this one . Afterall , I never do .
I should stop saying Oh Well from now on . That's for pussy's. Fuck 'em . We'll see ow this goes =]

"You don't have to move, you don't have to speak ;
LIPS FOR BITIN'
You're starin' me down , a dance makes me weak ;
EYES FOR STRIKIN'."

:blush: Isha .

His Girl Friday

I feel happy today !!!
Like utterly happy .
It was obviously because of the fucking insane car ride in Blair's mini-van this afternoon .
--Blasting hideously obscene rap music , mad bass songs , classy Frank Sinatra , YMCA , techno beatzz , air horning innocent bystanders , dancing frenzy while people in their own cars think we're high , so loud Larrie & Ellie got headaches while me and Felicia laughed our asses off watching Blair bob his head up and down the WHOLE car ride there ...
( And this was just from JP to West Ed guys . It was a long ass ride cuz of traffic -- thank goodness ! )
I just . I have the best [boy] friends that were ever created haha . Aurorgy, I cannot live without you .
God . That was just fucking hilarious , I won't get over it for a longggg time =]
Dorothy you should have been there :( Oh well , soon enough I'll be driving, we'll have multiple times like the one I just had.
Thank you for pulling me out of the pit I felt like I was slipping into .
I'm gonna live on this high for at least a little while ;)
Life is good .
Do we start painting tomorrow or what . ?

"We can RunAway , we can RunAwayy ;
There's no reason why we should stay . "

Luv Luv Isha

Kindly Unspoken

Ahhhhhh .
I was about to write a very cynical blog, but then I decided not to .
Yet again . I should really be thinking about how I have food & a house & an education .
I am a drama queen when it comes to blogs . Fack . My inner angst comes out when I sit down at this computer .
Uhm Uhm . How to be happy .
Instead of talking about how I'm completely insecure I feel about some things , let's list the postive :

• I signed up for PHOTOGRAPHY AT REB . Like zomg<3>
• Next semester , Guitar 20 with infamous Karvin, & Danielle Rideout!! Which shall be good . I get to sing . *drool* =D And hot boys please. AND TRIP TO B.C. WITH KARVIN BITCHES ? Eeep !
• Uhm . Math boy (LT) got VERY close today !! I believe it was absent mindedly , but still . Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppp! He's like . Eee . :) And he's super niice too , so it's not just looks kids. It's just I .can't .make .words. .come. .out. .of. .throat .
• Cucumbert (my iPod) is alive and well . I love him , and if he completely dies I'll be devastated .
• I'm just makin' shit up now . Useless pieces of information ! Life is so boring right now , and it's gonna stay like that for a long time . I've changed the title of this blog like five times now , as each song keeps shuffling , keeps attempting to lift my real mood . I'm so dumb sometimes . I feel this contempt for no reason ? It's gonna go away tomorrow . I think it may just be being in this house or something . Or that I have tests tomorrow , or that I'm screwed for Guitar 20 or that. Well . You know .

Gemini: A dream of yours is about to come true, so don't give up hope! You always knew things would work out for you, and you were right..

Do It Do It Or Die . Isha .

I think we have an Emergency

I'm having a bit of an identity crisis today .
Or no , I don't know how to describe this , just a feeling of insecurity today .
I feel like I'm running out of time for something .
Like I'm just wasting this space of life I have , I should be living it to the fullest .
Second - second last - year of highschool , and I'm scared today .
I don't know where I'm going after hs , what I'm going to do with my life .
I don't have a plan , a single plan. Social & Math 20, I have no inspiration for .
I'm only going to concentrate on my 30 courses , the most important , so I can get somewhere with them afterwards .
I think I'm just getting a little exhausted , I need Christmas break . A break from school , and break from my parents , a break from life .
It could honestly just be my room that's dragging my down , a project that feels like it's never going to get finished .
I got my shiny balck back pack today , it's pree hawt .
All I need is a little blush , that black vest and lavender hat from Urban Outfitters , and I'll be set for a new year .
*Sigh* I feel a bit better now that I've written it out . I think everything will come into place, as it should .
I just . Don't wanna loose my closest friends . You're all I got .
Which reminds me .
Deep Dark Secret #1.5 : ____________________________________
Actually, I was about to tell you , but then I decided not too .
Maybe if I keep it to myself, it'll come true.
I need to find you .
My Blue Heaven just popped up on my shuffle . It seems fitting to my predicament right now . I love you TBS . Pull me out everytime .

Luv Luv Isha .

"And it's all too familiar ,
And it happens all the time ,
All the cards begin to stack up,
Twisted heartache into fine
Little peices that avoid an awful crime but it's ,
You I can't deny (You I can't deny) . "

Nothing Else Matters

No thoughts today ,
just want my AA BackPack , Bra , & HeadBand .
Took down ALL my posters today , the room should be on it's way .
EeKay please make it happen for me , PLEASE . I'm begging you .
Moving out half of my stuff today too .
I almost got us the BS tix , but I was told the wrong pass code and lost my chance . Oops .
Fuck . We really need those tickets .
Do dododo do do do .

No luv today ,
Isha .

Oh look Blair's talkin' to me on msn :)

Literally, LOL .

This is a joke to me :
Apparently , Twilight is " the most epic romance since Titanic ."
HAHA. I think it's sinful to compare a fictional teenage phenomenon to a story that made REAL history.
Wait what am I saying ?
Twilight was like totally like based on like a true story like . Like Omg Omg Omg !
Because clearly , Jack Dawson is no match for Edward Cullen , the smoking hot vampire .
Have we really come to falling in love with characters that are untrue in the real world ?
Sad, sad sad . It makes a great book , don't get me wrong . But don't compare the movie to anything . Not even dirt kay ? Let alone the fucking Titanic .
WHICH WAS A REAL LIFE TRAGEDY !
Geez. LOL <33

Luv Luv Isha . I feel happy .