Porcelain Firebowl, 30-in.

Grad was like.
Yeah :)
Lovely ceremony, Lovely food, Lovely people.
My table was right beside Wyatt's so that was nice /
It gave me a litte perspective on how to turn things around ...
Well not like that trip to Tibet we are taking but like, it said something .
If I don't get on Grad Council next year I actually will drop out of school , just saying.
I don't know why, cuz I HATED student council @ aurora and I HATE the leadership kids here .
But grad council is different.. Like I actually NEED to be a part of that, it has become magnaimously important to me. Why, I ask that myself. But it has and now is . Period.
I'm actually so very excited even though it's far away. It's a VERY good distraction as well from other things that you say if you don't think about will happen .
So. Yeah :)
Oh hai.
Guitar concert Monday @ 8 . Come ?
My birthday is in one week .
I'm grounded for everything except anya's bday, my bday, RA+RAN, & Paul's band thing.
So you can be all best friends without me and be all happy and fun TOGETHER for the rest of June.
Ya I'm a little mad at that.
That's the one thing Moustafa is mean about. Finals.

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Okay so this is the 3rd blog I tried to right.
I'm just gonna say
I WISH WISH WISH WISH
I could somehow be in Toronto on August 23 ...
To see Blink Weezer & Taking Back Sunday ....
Like ...
:(
It's impossible.........................................................

If You Want It

You can have it ,
But you gotta learn to reach out there and grab it.

Okay. Weezer.. I love you.
DOROTHY DOPO PONG buy me all Weezer albums for my birthday ? Like maybe not ALL ...
FOR SURE Make Believe, Blue Album, Green Album, Red Album...
Like in that order of importance..
I also would like a portable dvd playurrrrrrrr, but I asked mumsie and daddie for thaa.
Maybe a chapters gift card from Jane, = Ellie take me BOOK SHOPPING =D
There's not much else I'd like, as for material items.
Okay
So I guess I'm just fucking it and having a party , we'll see who shows kinda.
Blair Friday June 5th my house come whenever you please .
Oh guess what.
I
LOVE
HEELZ

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOROTHY

Here's to 13 years of friendship.
Fuck, it's been that long huh .
Love you sooo much, like.
It's indescribable.
How you can make me laugh till I pee my pants, and till you fart . HARHAR.
How I always have looked to you for your opinion, your advice.
You are most likely the only one who NEVER bullshits an opinion, you just give it straight and don't give a fuck what others think.
You can be 100% logical, which is very admirable, especially when it's times where I feel like I'm losing my mind.
Do good things, love the life you have, and never give up, no matter how bad it gets.
We all love you .

LAV IYAYAYYYYYYY

* I was gonna put a picture of the true Aurorgy but I realized that Blair was missing, so. We'll get a complete one this summer :)

Wut Wrong

dorothy asks.
well.
i dunno.
one thing leads to another and I feel ____. (multiple adjectives go here.)
Losing K Police has really been sucky :(
Other things, tiny things that I've "lost". or just never won. And mother AND moustafa are being rreally gay too right now, just puts me in a sour mood. i hate when i hate being here. home is the best and it sucks/ oxymoron ?
but what can you do right. lol @ mothers indeed .
right now, i feel like im fading away .
oh yea, and i also feel like dying cuz GUESS WHO GOT SICK TODAY ! RIGHT BEFORE GRAD
things have just not gone my way for a really long time.
im just going through a bad losing streak. unlucky brand jeans.
ellie you'd be REALLY proud im gettin good at workin tha heelz .
i dont even really wanna do shit for my birthday either.
i just dont know
like. do you want to ?
*hufff*

K Tell Me

What's the point ?
What's the point of trying not to decieve, when it's not appreciated one single bit .
Trying to avoid doing bad things, always trying to be good, in hopes of something good happening in return ?
Hoping if that you don't do something wrong, Karma will NOT bite you in the ass , but it would reward you for that good instead?
Sitting, Waiting, Wishing ?
What
is
the
point
when
nothing
good
comes
out
of
it
.
I've just lost so many things in the past few weeks, maybe seeming little to you, but insurmountable to me. Those little things that keep you going! The happy things that you get excited about, the ones that you were looking forward too, were supposed to work out, but just, didn't.
So tell me.
What is the point ?
Not like I'm gonna become a massive drug addict and commit as many felonies as I can, but I'm just wondering. Because I don't know anymore.
It's always that the most depressing sayings are true, isn't it.
But don't worry friends, I am not dwelling. Just pondering in a blog.
Because that's what it's here for. Oh, and while we're at it, why are you such an overanalyzing bitch? Can't you just let go, and understand that everything is good right now?
Maybe it's not. But the left brained logical sideis trying as hard as it can to punch that thought back down to where it belongs. Out of existance.
Insane? Yup .

(It's the fire on the sidelines)

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And I get onto this thing.
Wow
Fuck Facebook mannnn.
I'm this___--___close to convincing Kevin to get a blog.
He's just very lazy and consumed by more important things.
Oh mother-daughterfight. And we were getting along so well for 4 days too :(
Ain't never gonna change. Aiight.
Uhm
Grad
Grad
Goodby to OWSPN & whomever else I am forgetting currently
Grad
Grad
Grad

I get the funny feeling,
that's alright..
Jimmy says it's better then here .

Explain To Me

This Conspiracy against me
And tell me how
I
LOST
MY
POWER

Be Careful What You Wish For

I wish

Sister Sister
Smart Guy
Boy Meets World
& Alf

still aired.

for this to leave .

for this to leave

for this to leave.

*Sigh*

That is the literal apitemy of how I feel right now.
Just a sigh. A blah. A nothing. A poop.
It's just an off day for me. Bord? I don't know.
I feel like really lonely too today. No one will talk to me.
Have I done something wrong?
I feel like it.
L didn't answer , *E didn't answer, B stopped txting (wondering if you didn't get my msgs or if it was on purpose) *D is on comp all day long ...
Oh
I just feel lame. So so so so lame.
And my stomach hurts now
Nice. Wow. I'm like slowly sliding down into the pitz. Like teetering or slipping right on the edge
There is NO reason to feel this way. Life is good
Isn't it?...
WHY ARE YOU ACTING THIS WAY
because your _____. grow up
Can someone please cheer me up

*SCRATCH THAT , the stars have spoken to me. YAY. Socialization .
I watched Desperate house wives today as well. Was really good.
And Ocean's Eleven. And I played with that cat they call Murphy.
I forgot to say that.

DropDropDropDropDropItOnTheOne

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Retiring the photo above, sorry Dee.

My proudest shot(s) thus far

I want a Pullitzer. Not for Metric though lol.

Ethan, Are You Implying Something ?

I'm going to have to ignore that comment, that BLOG infact,
BECAUSE OMG DID YOU WATCH THE SEASON FINALE OF SUPER N.
LIKE. Okay. Just had to say that. I won't go on . But like. Ruby Ruby Ruby Ruby SO-HO.
(the Racnid quote fits, and it's just for Blair)

Dorothy Dorothy Dorothy . The last time you came through, oh darling I know what you're going through .

Sorry, that had nothing to do with your name, or you . The song just popped up and I had to put it there.
Fucking blog assignment, still doing that Macbethian thing. Larrie. Hi.

Kyle have you been at school ? I don't think you have...

Ellie is going away . :(

Kieran, I STILL have to read the majority of your blogs. Ask anyone, I am THE SLOWEST reader ever.

HEY, Blog More !

I'm serious.
Even if you have nothing to say say it.
I'm bored.
Stupid Macbeth project
I HATE HER ENGLISH CLASS
and i'm so fucking behind on that book ....
but i really like it, i'm just a slow reader.
Dorothy knows that well .
I'm so like.
In love with Adam's Song ......................
Okay. So I wish I had the willpower to go on that bike for an hour everyday.
If I did that like at LEAST 4 days a week .... it would solve EVERYTHING .....
Hmmm.............

2 WEEKS

To find a worthy dress & pair of shoes,
cuz whatever I'm going to Grad this year :)
I wish I could say a really hot boy asked me and I'm going as his hot date,
but alas.
I'm volunteeering 8) snarf snarf.
But whatever, free ticket to banquet,
and I get to see some of my really good old & new friends graduate :)
W,S,P,N. that i can think of for now .
haha, that fit perfectly.

is the mic on this webcam broken too :(

Sick Of Being Sixteen

Yeah. I'm done with this grade. This year.
Gr. 12 come an dbe amazing !
As odd as it may seem, I'm excited about doing 30 level courses.
Like when you're at the 30 level, you've made it ! It's time for the prestegiousness to begin .
I want to buckle down and do fucking good.
My unrealistic goal is 85% in all classes,
Realstically 70%. This is including Physics , and I know I'll only get 65% in that, if not less.
Guitar ... is what I'm most excited about ... Like... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm :)
Actually it's only Guitar that I'm excited about.
I hope I get it in second semester. Like really badly. And with Arvin + Kevin + Max + Danielle.
It had better be that way .
Facebook changed again fuck .
Paramore could not come any slower,
But I don't want it to come. It'll be way too good and it'll be over and in one night I will literally have had the best time I'll ever have ever and it will be gone in a second.
I'd rather see them a million times in concert than fuck Hugh Jackman . Then fuck anyone for that matter really.
Like Paramore AND No Doubt... Like.. that's a $40 million dollar bonus from the man.
Dorothy I'm excited for your bday what are we gonna do ?
Then it's Kevin's
Then it's..
Oh wait..
MINE

I'm sinking slowly,
SO HURRYHOLDME !

Larrie Is A Pancake

I don't know why that title is.
I can guess like 4 of you're "you are" 's.
Mine is obvious to probably only me. Lol .
If anyone didn't know those two spitar pictures are MINE , I shot 'em.
As well as my Emily Dorothy's Girlfriend Haines pic up top here.
Fight Club is a good movie, the book is ALWAYS better than the movie. It's a proven scientific fact.
Bonfire bonfire bonfire.
I
like
them
all
:)
Especially one in particular. But no hopes . Hops. Park. SPIN. Laugh. Fun. Friends.
I rode the fucking MindBender t-t-twice yesterday, very proud of myself.
I actually felt invincible after the first time.

Dust it off and JJJerkkittt.

69

or should I say 66 ?
Ethan is the only one who watches Supernatural ...
Lillith eats babies ... what .... !
And like. Season, or is it SERIES FINALE on Thursday , apocalypse ? OH NO .
Wait .... John do you watch it ?...

Okay. So like. Mistake posting real feelings on blog.
Never doing that again . I'm probably going to just lose it and delete blogger some time .
It makes me very angry and emotional and sick .
Ughmuffin . Like everything is fine , and I'm being a hallucinogenic baby .
I'm just. In a rut. Life is a rut !
Guitar Tour was like SO GOOD that like normal life just sucks now . Well not sucks.
But it's not fun like that was. Nothing will be .
Lol I honestly wish I were in a real band and lived on tour on road and got to sing and play almost if not every night
I need to do things that make me happy everyday . Get Kevin pro at guitar . That's what I'd like.
I hate that down feeling that comes in most days .
Surprisingly I'm not feeling it right now.

All your friends seem like enemies
When you're broken down and empty
MmmMmm

Isha.

:)

Drafts

are life savers on this thing .

You are the best, unfortunately so confusing.
You will straighten things out, and feel good again .
You just make everyting lighter, better.
You are full of life (borderline insane) - I adore it to the limit .
You must make up with her ! This just cannot be .
You I am SEEING MAY 10 ?!
You I do not see enough. At all .
You create incredible inspiring blogs
You and I have not spoken in a while .

YOU made some too obvious, and not obvious enough .
In a way I wish I didn't have to come back ever .
Oh yeah , and I miss you like a bit too much ....

To Summarize My Guitar Tour ....

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I've got some friends , some that I hardly know -
And we've had some times
I wouldn't trade for the world .
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