Superstition

has nothing to do with this blog.
It's just stuck in my head right now.
Stevie Stevie Wonder.
I wonder.
Right now I feel really incompetent.
Like I can't do anything to please anyone.
You people at home.
I come home late.
Much later than you would have preferred,
so then you say no to going to another friend's b-day dinner today.
So I accept this and move along.
Admittedly, a little upset but no matter,
I defyed you, so you punished me, I move on.
Then 10 minutes later you say you're very angry, I'm an indecent, disrespectful person,
but I.. can go...
I'm not. But like.
I just don't understand.
Like I don't want to just do whatever the FUCK I want.
I don't deserve anything, like you said, and you're right.
It's up too you.
It's. Not.
You're the adults here.
I just don't understand
& lately my personality complex has been bothering me.
But only when being with two of my best friends, which is odd.
3rd wheel, even when you say you're not!.
I feel like it.
The whole one person for you thing is a load of bullllllshit.
But I can't seem to let it go for this past little while.
I also feel REALLY fuckin' incompetent because I have literally done absolutely nothing for GradCouncil.
I don't even think they need me like what am I here for ?
I have lost the purpose of my life this weekend my friends.
A mood swing, I know.
Hope i get back to where I was
or don't.
How do you feel ?