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Dear Mom :
I have a secret you don't know about ....

HA
HA
HA
Or DIDN'T know about, 'till I got BuStEd !
I actually willed the universe to catch 22 me. I kept imagining getting caught, and I did. If I had reacted a little faster and ran up the stairs, I wouldn't have been seen.
Yeah. She caught me bringing his kennel to my room this afternoon.
I thought I had her, cuz I booked it up the stairs while she was in her room, with the doors closed, for the most part.
But that door left slightly ajar allowed her to see out of the corner of her eye through the reflection of one mirror bouncing off another, (complicated right?) the white square that was cat kennel.
So she comes into my room and is like what'd you buy ?
I'm like nuffin.
She like what'd you buy? I saw it.
I like it's nothin. (SHIT!)
WHAT'D YOU BUY.
Larrie needed a cat kennel.
Oh. Okay. But there's no animal here right?
No.
Okay. There's not is there ?
....
Isha.
....
There's no animal here ?!?!
It's REALLY SMALL AND REALLY NICE AND IT'S IN THE BASEMENT BATHROOM (which is very spacious, the perfect bachelor pad for little Oreo) AND HE'S LITTERBOX TRAINED AND CLEAN AND OH IT'S ONLY FOR TODAY !
O_o. Don't. Show. Me. It.
(Walks away)

LOL ! I think I just fried my mom's brain. It was too much of an overload for her to react. Plus my WHOLE fam is coming over for ThanksG din din.
As for tomorrow... we'll see.
I've been a really bad person lately. Living the good life. I need to stop. Too many good things happened.
I've never felt so out of place in my own family tonight. Thanks G dinner is over, and I feel incredibly awkward. Everybody.. has somebody.. in the family that is there #1 person: (hubby, wife. SistaSista. etc. Everyone except me.)
YOU SELFISH BITCH ! I am what I feard most. A spoiled. Brat. I feel like one so much right now.
I feel really uncomfortable with myself right now.
I'm really going through some serious self doubt here.
I don't deserve anything I have recieved.
Oh fuck. I am a terrible person. I do so many things that she HATES. I am guilty. Cuff me.
1. These little disobidiences, what I'm doing, is it reasonable, living my own life, doing what I want to do?
2.Or should I be listening to every single word my mum tells me to do, because I owe her everything I have, because I don't do shit worth fuck everday.?
-Where do we draw the line ?
-Who am I ?