You're In My Head

Is it possible to think that much about someone who doesn't know you're...

Yah REB. I dunno how I feel about what happened,
but uh
I
m not going to talk about it here because Larrie&Kyle will probably yell at me really loudly
Well perhaps I should get it out but Kyle is advising me as I type (and it's helping MAJORLY)
Ya I've decided I'm not going to talk about
but I am going to post what Kyle has said:
Okay well.
You're being much too hard on yourself, first and foremost. You went out there and gave it your all [and rocked it].
But thanks to being teenagers, we're all self-conscious and unsure and always looking for acceptance and approval and appreciation and a bunch of words starting with "a" like that
And we're so used to wanting and YEARNING for that praise
That when we get it it's totally normal to be defensive and be like "Well... no!"
Like we're naturally used to questioning ourselves and NOT getting answers from people
That when we get answers without having to ask, it automatically sets off alarm bells and makes you wonder and question even more
You're not retarded at all, okay? (:
mmph
oh the insecurity
right now what is going through my head:
Stop talking to me
I must start eating properly!
I must start working out!!
I must get into juggling and soccer again!!!
Improve myself even more
by doing that
and tattoo
and job
and second semester
and leaving my friends
and my friends leaving
DIPLOMAS
DIPLOMAS
DIPLOMAS
DIPLOMAS
That's a big word.
I don't know how to feel
but I am done with school now
I can;t do this////
thank god fucking reb is over
shitty
shitty
fucking
reb
jk