WE SURE ARE IN FOR A SHOW TONIGHT

4 : 2

I'm feeling especially drowned now.
Like..
Physics, i just want to do so well but I know I'm not,
and I know I can't.
It's just fact of the matter, not oh you can do it Isha just believe!
I hate all you bullshitters who say that.
Like. I just don't like optimism when it comes to hmm i dunno REAL LIFE.
just pssss me off. sorry but it does.
Anywho
i just wish i was prepared for this test
this test of tests to end all tests
yes, it's my fault i didn't study as hard as i could have
and i know how hard i can study
just ask the library folk who saw me everyday for a week, chem books in hand.
and it's just like. i am really scared i am going to fail this diploma
but it's like what are you scared of REALLY.
parents? not really to be honest. university? no im not even getting in probably
then what?
just not passing?
not doing the best of your ability?
i dunno
i really don't know why this is so bothersome
it's just a test
(but it;s not JUSt a test''')
god why is this like this
i am just really truly daunted (dawnted?) about studying PHYSICS for 8 hours too
A
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I can't get over that idea.
I know it;s like when it comes I'll just suck it up but I can't even deal right now
oh i know
i'm a complainer
you told me straight up
and it's like. i don't care at ALL LOL
i know
but i need to write it out to get it out
and you are the unfortunate victim who subscribed to my shitty blog
so
deal
with
it